i need some help/advice from Charge RNs out there.
I work in a busy, 20 bed CICU. where not only do we have cardiac and heart failure patients, but lots of MICU, SICU, and CTICU borders. we do a lot of transfering in and out, admissions, and discharges.
I have just been oriented to charge nurse (against my will...it seems) and absolutely hate it. i left each day of orientation in tears.
my problems, i believe, are:
1. I don't think that i am experienced enough. i just started a little over a year ago as a new grad. what will happen if i am charge, with less experienced nurses, something happens and i don't know what to do?
2. iI don't think i am assertive enough. i guess the supervisors intimidate me and whatever they say goes, even if i disagree. and i don't know why i feel that way. how do i deal with this?
3. I care to much of what my coworkers think. if they don't like their assignments and *****...i get all upset. if i set the census to high for the next charge nurse and she complains about it i get upset. i don't get upset with them, i get upset with myself, like it's all my fault and can't let it go...i guess i feel that i am always wrong. i don't know.
i have spoken to my nurse manager about all these things without avail. she just says "well...we need charge nurses" and "hang in there...you'll do fine" what do i do???
