So I took my NCLEX RN for the first time july 21st. I got to question 158 and I did not pass. I am taking the boards again october 3 and I am beyond burned out! Both of my friends in the nursing program passed their second time and now I'm like "What if I don't". Everything that I need to move on in my life requires me to pass my boards; Getting out of my dead end job, my mother's house......so on and so forth. If I don't pass my boards the second time I am right back where I started. Everyone has told me to be optimistic that I will pass. I just need to look into the mirror everyday and say to myself "laura the RN". But then it all comes back to those dreaded stories I hear of people taking the test up to seven times before they pass. Then there I go again "oh God what if...." I can't seem to get myself out of that mode. Then I go back into being depressed because if that is me then I am stuck where I am at which I am not happy. I am where I'm at still because I do think that, "well next time I will pass. Not too much longer until I take the boards again". It just seems like this cycle that will not end. So I guess I am just writing this because I needed to vent to someone out there that can understand me I guess. Others who have never gone through this before don't really understand and all my friends who were with me have now passed so I feel left behind. HELP!!!!