over being upset, didn't pass the 1st time

  1. So I took my NCLEX RN for the first time july 21st. I got to question 158 and I did not pass. I am taking the boards again october 3 and I am beyond burned out! Both of my friends in the nursing program passed their second time and now I'm like "What if I don't". Everything that I need to move on in my life requires me to pass my boards; Getting out of my dead end job, my mother's house......so on and so forth. If I don't pass my boards the second time I am right back where I started. Everyone has told me to be optimistic that I will pass. I just need to look into the mirror everyday and say to myself "laura the RN". But then it all comes back to those dreaded stories I hear of people taking the test up to seven times before they pass. Then there I go again "oh God what if...." I can't seem to get myself out of that mode. Then I go back into being depressed because if that is me then I am stuck where I am at which I am not happy. I am where I'm at still because I do think that, "well next time I will pass. Not too much longer until I take the boards again". It just seems like this cycle that will not end. So I guess I am just writing this because I needed to vent to someone out there that can understand me I guess. Others who have never gone through this before don't really understand and all my friends who were with me have now passed so I feel left behind. HELP!!!!
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    About ltmja

    Joined: Sep '07; Posts: 58; Likes: 36
    waiting to take my board again so the current job is a little embarrassing
    Specialty: anything that I had my clinicals in


  3. by   Silverdragon102
    you are not on your own, take your time studying and make sure you understand the rationale of the question and hang in there

    Good luck
  4. by   nurse1717
    You've come this far--can you delay your beyond burn out until after your exam in a couple weeks? How and what have you been studying? You have 2-1/2 weeks to go--keep a can do, will do attitude--I have to remind myself of this too. I'll be testing 2-1/2 weeks after you. We can do this! Best of luck.
  5. by   StarMatrix17
    Let go of your criticisms about how things should have been, and you'll see the magnificent possibilities of now. Let go of your worries about what might be, and you'll be able to focus on all you can do right now.
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  6. by   ltmja
    I am mostly studying with kaplin, sauders, and I have these pocket books called med-surg notes and nursing notes that have seem to be very helpful so I hope this time
    Thank you, and good luck to you as well!