Well, I take my test finally, and I feel so overwhelmed--period. My life like many others here is an emotional rollarcoaster with this test. I just want everyone and anyone who reads this to know that I have sat at this keyboard looking at this screen and silently prayed hundreds of times for everyone who has posted a portion of their life experiences here. I am sorry for anyone I have offended in the past, a certain moderator for instance, I am SO sorry for being rude, I am just an over sensitive clod sometimes (like now??...). I am not prepared for this test, I have been out of school since December '05, and out of work since March '06. Since the day I started this long drawn out journey known as college of Nursing, I have ended a 14 year relationship w/ the father of my three innocent kids caught in the middle; raised them on my own; with a part-time job as a unit secretary (which was a pretty good gig, don't know why I didn't just stop there); failed OB/L&D not once, but TWICE, got put out of the nursing program; fought my way back in, WHEW!; finally passed OB/L&D (third time is definitely the charm for me); got evicted at the beginning of my last semester; kids and I lived with my sister as I fought my way through Psych/Advanced Med-Surg; had a hissy over HESI (924, needed an 870 or better to complete program); moved to a nice but much more expensive rental home (moved here in Feb, got fired in March--nice job, Michelle! Now you can for sure afford the extra $150 on the rent--NOT!!!!!!); met a new man, but no man comes problem free, however, this one is better than the last one (well, Jabba the Hut is better than the last one!!!). All of this boils down to this test this Friday...
Will I pass? The reality of it is that I have been out of sync for awhile, so probably not-- but I am the Eternal Optimist, so I have to believe that I can do this. I have done well over 15,000 comprehensive review questions in the last 4-6months--including NCLEX3000, starnurse, and my all time fave, the Kaplan Question Trainer. I have one last question set from Kaplan which I have been saving for this week, and my home is littered with reference manuals and nursing school notes--all of which I immediately develop ADHD when it comes to reading through. For what its worth, I get ADHD whenever I try to watch a movie as well! I lose concentration right after the opening credits, I don't know...
In any case, that is my story in a nutshell, very edited and very condensed as well. If all knew my true entire story, well now that would require more than a message board, right??? I guess that is true for all nurses. Never was there a career so ironic, in that one must be a little CRAZY for wanting to pursue and excel in, yet how often are nurses criticized for acting crazy??!!
That is like accusing a boxer for being too "rough', or a monkey handler for smelling "odd" (bad)!!!!! Come to think of it, a career in monkey handling may not be so bad if I DON'T PASS THIS TEST--AAAAAaaaaaaarrrrrgggghhh!!!!:monkeydance:
