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My career is costing me my mental health and I am afraid

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by CatRescuer223 CatRescuer223 (New) New Nurse

CatRescuer223 has 1 years experience and specializes in Cardiac, Med-Surg.

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14 hours ago, CatRescuer223 said:

One month later- I’m still at the job. My family doesn’t seem to “get” how much I hate it... they keep telling me to stick it out and get at least a year & try to transfer. My last shift (Monday) I was verbally abused by a patient. He made me cry, but not until I left the room, of course. I found myself wondering- if that patient knew that this job makes me want to kill myself, would he have been so harsh? (He yelled, and cursed at me and called me worthless and untrustworthy for bringing his medication late— I had 7 patients including him, and it was not an urgent medication, which I explained to him. Of course he didn’t give a d*mn). I plan to approach my boss (or maybe even above her) and ask to transfer to another unit besides mine, but my night  team is good AND my hospital has limited options outside of abusive Med-Surg (just psych, ER, and L&D)... none it which are usually open to new grads there. I don’t want to violate my contract and owe multiple thousands of dollars I don’t have. I just... I don’t know what to do. I wish it was easier. 

Isn't there atleast a 100 number that you can start with? Most jobs provide this information during orientation.

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CatRescuer223 has 1 years experience and specializes in Cardiac, Med-Surg.

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3 hours ago, Workitinurfava said:

Isn't there atleast a 100 number that you can start with? Most jobs provide this information during orientation.

@Workitinurfava I am not sure. I was not given a proper orientation to this facility/job, and because I work Overnights I do not have access to much of our teams/resources 

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You need to do what you can to get yourself help. Go in on your day off and talk to someone; HR, your boss, a coworker, anyone. No one here can call HR or your resources for you, I'm sure someone would if we could! You must do this for your mental and physical health. Reach out to someone at the hospital. Walk in to the hospital and straight into HR and tell them what's going on. Please reach out to someone.

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CatRescuer223 has 1 years experience and specializes in Cardiac, Med-Surg.

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6 hours ago, WhitneyPeavler said:

You need to do what you can to get yourself help. Go in on your day off and talk to someone; HR, your boss, a coworker, anyone. No one here can call HR or your resources for you, I'm sure someone would if we could! You must do this for your mental and physical health. Reach out to someone at the hospital. Walk in to the hospital and straight into HR and tell them what's going on. Please reach out to someone.

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My boss is already coming after me for PTSD related issues— I was assigned without my choice to the “before” hurricane team- and expressed to her that due to my ptsd I cannot be away from home like it was required- I would end up in the ER for panic episodes (which already happened at work one unrelated time!) I told her I was more than happy to work the “after” team- but no one would switch with me, even after calling the whole list of staff to that unit... I told her I didn’t feel safe reporting to work knowing full well I would end up having a panic attack/flashbacks. It also would not have been to the benefit of my patients. I told her since the switch could not be made, I would not be reporting. I provided medical documentation. Now (over a month later) she’s calling me in “about the hurricane issue” to sit with her and our ACNO. I’m not sure what’s going to come of the meeting- but in short, my boss is not approachable, nor accommodating to mental health issues/disabilities. 
I suppose my best bet is HR but I’m afraid that my boss has everyone out for me already now. 

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CatRescuer223 has 1 years experience and specializes in Cardiac, Med-Surg.

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Update:

i grew some balls and left that crazy hospital. On a whim, I applied for an open position as a school nurse. When contacted, it turned out the position was at my old high school 😊 I took the job, and I’ve been there for about 2.5 months now. I’m the ESE nurse so I have 36 kids and manage any/all medical situations for them. I have my own office and a supportive supervisor and team of teachers/administrators. I’m happy at my job. The kids love me and I’ve found a new passion! I have always wanted to work in advocacy roles, and I can finally do this! I love being able to watch the progress these kids make each day and I’m there to stand up for the ones who don’t have a voice (& need one). Unfortunately, they need me to intervene in this way... but FORTUNATELY I’m the one who’s there to do it, without fear! My work anxiety is minimal and I feel well supported. My job has meaning and purpose to me, finally! No more tears!!!

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Duxfeminafacti has 7 years experience as a BSN, RN and specializes in Addiction, Psych, Critical Care, Dual dx, Hospice.

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I have never been more excited to read an update. Good for you! Very proud, enjoy your new rewarding career! This is why we became nurses in the first place. Bullying ends with us. 

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