My bag of struggles.

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Before anything I'd like to say that I want to be a nurse SO bad. Is it cliche of me to say because I like helping people? If so oh well! :) because that IS why! I have volunteered in various settings and I LOVE seeing someone smile. I love making someone feel better. Even when people don't show it. It gives me comfort knowing I made someones day better. I love math and science and reasoning. I know nursing is for me! THIS is what motivates me. Along with God my mother and friends! The pure will to succeed in life.

Also, I know my struggles are nothin' compared to some single mommas and dads out there! To people who have truly no one else but themselves. But were all unique. My struggles are the way they are because God knows my weaknesses and strengths. I simply want to tell my little story and ask for some prayers.

Turn back the hands of the cosmic clock a year from now and you will see me, an excited, recent high school graduate (2011), pre-nursing major, anxious and ready to get his prerequisites out of the way.

Before long, I had finished all my prerequisites and the time to apply came knocking at my door.

Application period began on a great note. I had my background checks completed. I had my drug tests completed. I however had my HESI exam to tackle, this is where I feel the turning point began. I took my HESI and scored above and beyond except for one sub-section. I was extremely crushed when the enrollment clerk told me that I had to retest due to this minor section! I was extremely down. I have made 95+ on all sections excluding this ONE section! I was overcome by half an hour of distress. My academic confidence soiled, however I knew this was NO way a nursing student should take things. Like a mama bear I hunted endlessly for a testing center! At last I found one, I took my exam over again and scored a 100% on this sub-section. Before I knew it my application was in and I began to relax for a change.

Weeks passed and I at last received the email that I longed for. Within this email there was hard work and sweat off my brow! I prayed as I opened the PDF...

"Accepted" bounced at me... My heart skipped a beat! My feet skipped too! I danced and danced. I let my self absorb the moment. I allowed my self to soak in the excitement! The sweet sweet relief!

Not long after though, I felt a huge crash. I noticed all these expenses! About 500 dollars for uniforms. About 500 dollars for vaccines! The mandated due dates conflicted with my financial situation. I had finaid however, at my institution we do not receive the aid on our debit cards for outside use until 30 days post the initial day of instruction.

I knew I couldn't handle all these costs, but I found a way! I did! I worked out something with the nursing department. I there learned the importance of communication. I will forever be gracious for their understanding and patience. I will forever be gracious to my mother. She devoted a whole paycheck to my needs. I become so sentimental as the mere thought of her and her generosity and her will for me to succeed. I love my mother and I will retire her as soon as I graduate her. She will remain on a pedestal until her departure from this world. She's raised me by her self from age six. I love you mom!

So guys, here I am now. I've been surviving off canned food and bread for over a month. Were a bit behind on bills (my momma and I live together, she chose to help me through N-school). I have faith this time shall pass. Our cars need some fixing. My window decided to stop rolling up and down. My car randomly needs to be started with jumper cables. My mothers car has control steering issues and needs an extra fan!

I took out a gov loan and am saving to get these things fixed before clinicals begin. I do get my finaid before clinicals so my commute to the hospitals will be ALRIGHT and dandy :) For now my only commute will be to school which is only like 1.5 miles away. All my books can be bought at the school bookstore with my finaid money. I'm beginning to see my self actually starting! I know I know! Nursing school will be hard! The journey to nursing school was difficult. The journey out won't be any easier but I DO ask you all to please send some prayers my way. Having Gods hand, preventing more car issues and any outrageous financial drawbacks. I want to make note of who goes where and maybe even work out a carpool. I already have some great friends who declared they are here for me to lend a hand. They have no idea how thankful I am! I hope that God not only blesses my career for myself but so that I am always able to help others and help them. I also hope God sends amazing blessings to all those who have helped and will help me. For those who pray for me and those who listen.

Were suppose to receive some money from an individual who owes us. I'll be getting my wonderful finaid and I hope to find a good nurse tech job, once I am able to.

**If you took the time to read this... God bless YOU! LOL and thank you**

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Specializes in Primary Care; Child Advocacy; Child Abuse; ED.

I do understand! Keep on the right and even though there are struggles you will be blessed:) best of luck to you!!

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I have been there and understand! Last year about two weeks or so before school started my car that was paid off DIED. Like total internal engine failure kind of died. The first couple of weeks we drove our church van because we were luckly enough to have that. It's definitely humbling but we were able to use my student loans to buy another car and it's been a huge blessing for us.

I know what it's like to struggle with each step but in the end it will be worth it.

Good luck!

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Nothing worth EARNING is ever easy :)

Good luck!

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Thank you for your responses! I'm eagerly awaiting the first day of school as well my titers for my hep B. Praying they're (+).

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Definitely sending prayers your way! Your right, we all have/have had obstacles of our own. But, that does not make yours any less troublesome. You have been through struggles, and you have been brought through. Just remember to turn to God, he will bring you through it :)

Best of luck on the rest of your journey through nursing school!

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You have seen the hand of God in your life, He will carry you through this too!!Be encouraged!!

Rom8:28,Ps55:22,Ps37:4,2Tim2:3

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Praying for you and your mother! Most people would have given up at this point after all those struggles, but you have gone after what you want and I believe that you can make it all the way through school! Good luck to you in the future :D

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You are an outwardly upbeat person despite your current situation - you obviously have what it takes and are on the right path. Things will get better and I'm sure many blessings are around the corner! Keep on keepin' on - with God's help you can't go wrong : )

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