Howdy guys. I have been reading through the forums, and I am going to contribute to the million hx of addiction questions.
I am starting my pre-reqs for nursing school soon. However, I have a hx of drug abuse (common story, back problems and pain pills...started ER drug seeking for awhile, realized what a scumbag I became and went to rehab), and am currently tapering off of MMT. I am incredibly grateful to the program. I go to a counseling and at least 1 group every month (usually more). I have had over 100 consecutive clean drug screens (never had a failed one in fact). If I hadn't stopped when I did, and if I hadn't gotten on MMT, I know I would have lost my home, children, possibly my freedom or my life. I owe a lot to the program.
However. Big however. I am aware the BON doesn't look kindly on a hx of addiction, for obvious reasons. I have no legal history outside of speeding, and the only 'proof' is in my medical records. I also have an app in to the state for a months worth of take homes (currently get 2 weeks). Tapering safely I can be off in 9 months, well before I'd even graduate. So I won't be on the Methadone by the time I'd go before them. I don't feel comfortable with either of my options. And I want to be very well prepared and aware of the consequences before I am at crunch time.
If say yes in IN that I have a hx of addiction, that I have (at this point 6.5 years) x years clean, should I mention MMT? or leave it out? If I include it what would that mean? If I don't what would that mean? If I move, does that mean I'd be subject to restrictions AGAIN? What are the chances that I not get any restrictions or monitoring (or at least not expensive years long monitoring)?
If I say no, I'd be lying and subject to losing my license and fines. But I'd not have to worry about an monitoring programs, same with if I move (which I plan to after I get my license), no worrying about restrictions or monitoring, and possibly even less chance of being found out.
Both options suck pretty hard. Which stinks. Because I got help BEFORE things got really bad. I am very ashamed of my past actions, but not of my recovery. So I feel pretty torn.
