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Last month I was injured while transferring a patient. I hurt my back and have been on modified duty for over a month now.
At first, my manager was "nice" about offering me light duty assignments. I have been essentially acting as a free charge nurse, which my unit does not (but should) have. As the weeks have passed, my manager, though she has never particularly been friendly to me, seems to abhor the ground I walk on. She gives me the stink eye every time she sees me, and rolls her eyes when I bring in my new modified duty paperwork. Today she said "I took you off the holiday because there's no reason for you to sit around on a holiday," without even looking at me.
I do not "sit around." I try to stay up and active as much as possible because sitting hurts for one, and two, I want to be of service to my unit. I am often advocating for our staff and patients when the manager is mute on the subject. I am limited by the amount of weight I can bear and how much I can bend over, but I still try to be there for my coworkers where I can.
Recently, I was bullied (per usual) by a coworker. She has a history of being awful to me, as well as others, but she seems particularly keen on making my life hell. (Side story, even a patient and other hospital staff have recognized her being awful to me!) On this day, she and my manager both yelled at me for something that is not anything I had anything to do with. She also was rude about making me do her entire admission, which I did not do - I finally told her she needed to ask nicely after several hours of her berating me for being useless. Then later in the day, I was floated to another floor to be a telemetry technician. I have spoken with my manager and the nursing supervisors about my limitations, which include not sitting for several hours at a time (ie - reading tele monitors). I personally feel this was retribution for standing up for myself to this bully nurse.
My sister says it's a shame my boss doesn't like me, and I should try to get on her good side. Just a few months ago, however, my manager was the reason for a mass exodus of nurses from our floor. She does not respect the talented nurses on the floor, and we have lost some great nurses because of it.
Aside from the bully nurse and two or three lazy nurses, my unit has an awesome team of nurses and nursing assistants. We are all about teamwork and being there for each other. I do not know what to do about my relationship with my manager. I am in my early 30s, and I've been a nurse for three years. I am single, and without a backup plan. I do not want to return to full duty and hurt myself permanently, but at the same time, I am losing my self esteem because my boss makes me feel so useless and like I am a burden. Any advice?