Wasted LPN

[MOONIELOVE]

Hello everyone,

This is how I feel! Wasted! Why I feel like this is kinda my fault but then a again everything happens for a reason. If only I knew why at this time and how to fix it? My situation: Finished Nursing school in August 05, took boards in september and got license in October. It took me till May 06 to get a Job and start working at a correctional facilty through a staffing agency. something I really didn't like. Then maybe a month later I found out I was pregnacnt, three months after I was put on bed rest and had to stop working. Now I am Nine months Pregnant and ready to give birth but, it seems like I have wasted my whole career away.

Not saying Im not happy about my pregnancy, because I am it's just I feel like I know nothing now. If put in a hospital I would probably freeze up and not know what to do. It took so long and what felt like eternity to get out of school and then to find a job, I think it will never happen. It will be like repeating all of 2005-2006 over.

I thought about going to school to do a RN bridge program, but it kinda seem useless. A new baby, school, and trying to find a job . Man I just really don't know what to do!

I really needed to vent!

Sorry so long.

[coral0033]

Hello, do not feel wasted you have your certificate and that will hold you in good stead later down the line; you need to rest so that all will go well and you will have a healhy baby-- please just take one day at a time this experience in a way is good it makes you a better understanding person in your outlook;you have done nothing wrong and you are not alone in such a situation; you want to have a healthy baby so enjoy the rest now and think of work when you are in better health to cope.I wish you well with everything.

[matheny]

I am fresh out of school, and am about to start my first Nursing job.

I have talked to others and they all feel as if they learned on the job, more than in school. I was feeling so unprepared(still am) but they all assured me that you learn as you go. I believe as you go out in the work field you will be surprised at the stuff you remember. I have a 16 year old daughter and we just started saying I am strong! I am powerful! I can do it! We laugh at ourselves but it really helps. I wish you the best.

[Starr1966]

i think we all feel like this at some point in our nursing career. you do learn more as you are actually working in the field, you learn something new everyday. i have been a nurse for nine years and am still learning. there are many things that i don't know. i do the best that i can and if i'm unsure about something, i ask someone else about it. its better to be safe then to assume that you know it and take a chance of being wrong.

hang in there and take it one day at a time, you will do fine.

[kaicee]

by this time i guess you overcome that feeling and with a new baby coming,all is forgotten.Maybe this will help you feel better.The real meaning of a wasted LPN is taking a course of 2-year practical nursing and finished with all the hopes of making life better after graduation. The money used for my studies is a real sacrifice because I have 5 kids,all attending primary education but we persevere. Then after 2 years,just found out that LPNS in the Philippines are not given visas in the U.S. A sorry story but I think it's my fault for not researching first of the status of LPNS going abroad. I just enrolled and believed the school which is obviously ignorant of laws. For now I feel sorry for myself for all those false hopes especially my family who did the real sacrifice.

But hey this is not the end of the world! I just pray and maybe there is a better plan for us.:):):):nurse::nurse::nurse::nurse:

You will do fine...and the best practice for a nurse is MOTHERHOOD!

[DTC]

Gosh,,,I really needed to hear what everyone had to say. I graduated March 06, passed boards April 06. Got my first job in LTC in August. Quit after one month. No doubt,,LTC is NOT my calling. So,,about 2 months later, I went to an OP Long Term addiction center. Stayed there one month. All I did was hand the residents their drugs and make sure they swallowed them. I was so down on myself for not liking each job,,something must be wrong with me. I was morbidly obese and 52. Not in a good space in my life. Had lap band surgery Jan 29th 07, lost 40 pounds in 3 months and got anotehr job. This time it was assisted living. Same thing. All I did was put pills in cups into their bins (had 50 residents and it took me 2 1/2 hours to pull all meds for teh entire evening at once)My percious 13 yr old chihuahua got mauled to death one day and I had to put her to sleep. Because I had only been working there less than a month, I went on to work 2 hours later. I was a mess. I also made my first med error. Nothing life threatening, but it threw me for a loop. I finished my shift and never went back. Now,,here it is almost August. I've now lost 66 pounds and doing great. I've started therapy to deal with my lack of confidence and other issues. I'm scared to death to look for a new job. I can explain the lapses in time(going to Europe for 2 months, Dad dies, settled his estate, had surgery, recovery, blah blah blah)but I'm scared I'm going to try something different and not like it either. I'm interested in working at a state mental hospital and they have jobs open. I'm my own worst enemy. I'm trying hard to overcome my fear of failure but its hard.

Thanks for everyone who posted.