I graduated from nursing school in 2012. My nursing career has been difficult. I lost my first nursing job after only working in hospital for 3 month. I was told my time Management was not good and i was not a good fit. After 5 or 6 month on unemployment i was able to find a job in a small clinic. I worked there for a 1.5 year and felt i need to challenge my self by going back to the hospital setting. So, i was happy when i got a job offer at a local hospital on medical surgical floor. I was given a 10 week orientation program. However at the 7 week (which would be yesterday) I was told by manager this is not a good fit for me and she must let me go. This came as a surprise for me since the manger never sat down to do a review with me .The only time she sat and talk to me was the day before where she asked me how i feel and i told her i am learning a lot but i may need to get more orientation to feel more comfortable. Anyways, for the second time in my young nursing career i was let go from hospital nursing position. I kind regret taking this job offer at the first place. I had another offer at a local teaching hospital but i went with the other offer because the position appealed to me more. I do not know if i can ask the other hospital if they can reconsider me after i declined their job offer? I really taught this time i was going to make it. I know i have some anxiety issue when doing something i have not done before .However, i noticed that my anxiety(Shaky hands) decreases dramatically the more i do the skill. My manger said she has spoken with my preceptors and was told am not ready yet.Due to shortage of nurse preceptors , i worked with many nurse everyday but i had one nurse whom i was told is my main preceptor . My main preceptor in my opinion did not like precipitating me at all. However, i did not tell my manger that. My preceptor once told me that she is there just to show me the computer system not teach me anything else.What do you recommend ? is hospital nursing not for me ? Should i do career change? Any nurse in my situation who failed in hospital nursing but was able to rise up and succeeded in hospital nursing. My motto in life is if you fail, you rise up, if you fall again your rise up again.
i do not want to go wait another 6 month of unemployment to land another job.
