Today I lost a patient to suicide. Not in the unit. He never made it to us. I have known him for a few years, and just a day or so ago was wondering why I had not seen him for awhile...he was a "frequent flyer". Read about it in the newspaper. I never get used to this. Not ever.I am so very sad. Going over and over in my mind... was there anything we could have done better? Lit some candles for him and sending him the love and care I wish I could have expressed better when he was here. Guess I just wanted to share, and to ask you -- to share your experiences, how you felt, how you grieved, how you moved on, how you learned for next time? I know I'm not alone - it is something all psych nurses have happen. But it just never gets any easier.