Looking for a job and references

[Amy888lee]

Hello....

i graduated in2015's RN program in Alberta, canada. I got 2casal jobs when I graduated. One in Medicine, one in L&D. When i was working in medicine, i made a lot of mistakes... wrong meds, not being able to react to a critical situation, etc. The managers thought that my practice would affect patient safety. As the result, i was suspended by medicine. At the same time, L&D suspended my position too because they see my record in medicine. A year later, my suspension status got removed because there is no further discipline has been made for over a year.

A month earlier , a got a public health position. I thought i was doing well there. However, during my last day of orientation, i got terminated again. The manager said that i am still not capable to work alone to do home visit. However, there is no more budget she can provide to supervise me.

i wanted to go back to L&D, but the manager said that since i have not worked at L&D for a year. I need to reapply the position again.

I need a job, but I dont hve any good references. Can anybody share some idea about how can I get a job with no references?

Also, it seems that i always hve a problem to make a decision when critical situation happens. At the beginning, i thought that it is ok to ask for help. However, the staff or the managers dont see that i am asking question. They think that i am incompetent.

I feel that i am stuck at a black whole now. I need to find a way to get out of this termination situation. Please somebody advice...or share similar experience. Thank you so much..