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Hi guys i need some serious help please-ive been an LPN for about 6 months. I started working for an Assisted living facility but quit after a month partly because of the hour drive and partly from being stressed out (particularly by patients family members ugh) I then started working for a chiropractic clinic, doing pretty much MA work. the only 'nursing' i did there was stick a pain patch on patients. thats it. other than that it was scheduling, phones,charts and the chiropractic treatments. the company had several locations and had a supervisor in training go office to office checking charts etc, making sure everything was being done according to the companies policy. i was having a hard time learning these things, and every time she came i was pulled into a corner and was told how i did this this this AND this wrong. i worked soo hard to do better for the next time i got audited (the doctor even commended me saying the company didnt deserve me, that i went out of my way continuously, especially for my patients) but no matter what i did it was like i never got better. I started to stress out and let her get to me (i know i shouldnt have) but it got to the point that i couldnt take it anymore-she would say "WHY are you doing this this way? youre a nurse arent you? remember youre a nurse" i felt like such a failure-if i couldnt do this peice of cake job how the hell can i be a nurse?
End of story i quit (again) after 4 months and have found a new job at a pulmonary clinic. I feel like i know NOTHING and am embarrassed b/c although a pulmonologist is new to me, i feel like by now i should know how to 'be a nurse' and 'think like a nurse'. I've been there a few weeks now (part time) and every day i kick myself over not knowing what to look for in the charts, handling insurance questions and paperwork, and how to be a nurse period. i feel like an idiot and wonder if i chose the wrong career. i dont want to keep running from job to job,especially with this economy, but dont know how to cope with this and have more self esteem. Any advice would be much appreciated.