Hi everyone! First of all, thanks for taking the time to read this, sorry so long, I think writing it has been cathartic. I think I've read every "help, new grad" post I could find but am still in need of advice.
I know the first year is expected to be hell and I'm up for the challenge because I want to be the best nurse I can be for my patients. I know that no setting is perfect but I have some concerns and need to be sure that I'm protecting my patients and my license. I do whatever I can to do my part. I come home and study all the new things I come across and I let the other nurses know that I'm new and open to any guidance.
Fresh out of school with no prior hospital experience, I was hired to my first RN position on a neuro progressive unit. I made it clear to my supervisor that all my experience was limited to clinicals or lab, I had never even cath'ed a patient or started IV. She said that was great because she wanted to mold me for the unit.
Just a little background...I've been off orientation about 2 months now. I am a smart person and my ego doesn't come into play in my nursing, I know my limits and make it clear that I am open to advice. On orientation, I never did anything without running it by my preceptor. Orientation was difficult because my preceptor did so much that I never found my own groove, she just snapped that I needed to learn time management. When I asked for advice, she said she couldn't teach it, I'd have to learn. Other preceptors have done confidence building things like yelling across the room "what are you giving him??" as I started the IVP of morphine we just discussed. Or yelling at me in front of a patient that meds were due 2 hours ago (forgetting that I had been with another high-need patient all morning and let her know I was running behind).
Anyway, I've had some troubling things happen since I've been on my own and I am questioning if I should be on this floor at all because I'm new?
More than once I have spent most of my shift with a needy patient (BP over parameters, Cleviprex titration, lumbar drain, MD phone calls, new neuro deficits, pulling out cortrak, restraints, etc) and I'd let charge know my situation and another nurse would do meds and check on the other patients but at the end of the day, I was responsible for the assessments and overall well-being of the patient. Often all I had done was a neuro check or 2 and then a fast total assessment at end of shift. What do I really know about my patient at that point?? So I remain responsible, even though I cant leave the more acute patient AND the other patients got minimal care and attention?? NOT OK with this nurse but what could I have done differently? When I asked, I was told "that's just the way it is, you did good". Is that really the way it is?
Also, since I started, close to 10 of the seasoned nurses have quit and about 7 brand new nurses are coming on board which is setting off my red-flag sensor.
On more "normal" shifts, I hit the ground running, rarely pee, never eat and I don't leave until 9:30-10:30pm (shift ends at 7:30). Let me remind you, I aint complaining but I am concerned. We are not only short nurses, but are short aids so I am doing alot of aid work. Not a problem for me but I'm also brand new and learning an intense specialty so I get very little charting done because I never stop. I'm trying to delegate, bundle and prioritize but I never stop. (the seasoned nurses have the same pace, some leave on time, some late, I cant figure it out).
Because of my hour commute, that gives me about 5 hours to sleep until next shift and I'm so tired that I'm afraid I'll make a stupid mistake. I told my boss my concerns and she set me up with a mentor, but we're too busy to catch up. She said I need to have "more authority" with my aids who are spread 8:1 with high needs patients. I spend my days off trying to sleep but my anxiety wont let me so it's snowballing. I'm considering a med for the anxiety but I dont want to need that for my job!
Obviously I have a decision to make and I'd really appreciate your opinions, as I don't really know what normal is or how to protect myself or my patients.
Thank you again for your time.
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Hi everyone! First of all, thanks for taking the time to read this, sorry so long, I think writing it has been cathartic. I think I've read every "help, new grad" post I could find but am still in need of advice.
I know the first year is expected to be hell and I'm up for the challenge because I want to be the best nurse I can be for my patients. I know that no setting is perfect but I have some concerns and need to be sure that I'm protecting my patients and my license. I do whatever I can to do my part. I come home and study all the new things I come across and I let the other nurses know that I'm new and open to any guidance.
Fresh out of school with no prior hospital experience, I was hired to my first RN position on a neuro progressive unit. I made it clear to my supervisor that all my experience was limited to clinicals or lab, I had never even cath'ed a patient or started IV. She said that was great because she wanted to mold me for the unit.
Just a little background...I've been off orientation about 2 months now. I am a smart person and my ego doesn't come into play in my nursing, I know my limits and make it clear that I am open to advice. On orientation, I never did anything without running it by my preceptor. Orientation was difficult because my preceptor did so much that I never found my own groove, she just snapped that I needed to learn time management. When I asked for advice, she said she couldn't teach it, I'd have to learn. Other preceptors have done confidence building things like yelling across the room "what are you giving him??" as I started the IVP of morphine we just discussed. Or yelling at me in front of a patient that meds were due 2 hours ago (forgetting that I had been with another high-need patient all morning and let her know I was running behind).
Anyway, I've had some troubling things happen since I've been on my own and I am questioning if I should be on this floor at all because I'm new?
More than once I have spent most of my shift with a needy patient (BP over parameters, Cleviprex titration, lumbar drain, MD phone calls, new neuro deficits, pulling out cortrak, restraints, etc) and I'd let charge know my situation and another nurse would do meds and check on the other patients but at the end of the day, I was responsible for the assessments and overall well-being of the patient. Often all I had done was a neuro check or 2 and then a fast total assessment at end of shift. What do I really know about my patient at that point?? So I remain responsible, even though I cant leave the more acute patient AND the other patients got minimal care and attention?? NOT OK with this nurse but what could I have done differently? When I asked, I was told "that's just the way it is, you did good". Is that really the way it is?
Also, since I started, close to 10 of the seasoned nurses have quit and about 7 brand new nurses are coming on board which is setting off my red-flag sensor.
On more "normal" shifts, I hit the ground running, rarely pee, never eat and I don't leave until 9:30-10:30pm (shift ends at 7:30). Let me remind you, I aint complaining but I am concerned. We are not only short nurses, but are short aids so I am doing alot of aid work. Not a problem for me but I'm also brand new and learning an intense specialty so I get very little charting done because I never stop. I'm trying to delegate, bundle and prioritize but I never stop. (the seasoned nurses have the same pace, some leave on time, some late, I cant figure it out).
Because of my hour commute, that gives me about 5 hours to sleep until next shift and I'm so tired that I'm afraid I'll make a stupid mistake. I told my boss my concerns and she set me up with a mentor, but we're too busy to catch up. She said I need to have "more authority" with my aids who are spread 8:1 with high needs patients. I spend my days off trying to sleep but my anxiety wont let me so it's snowballing. I'm considering a med for the anxiety but I dont want to need that for my job!
Obviously I have a decision to make and I'd really appreciate your opinions, as I don't really know what normal is or how to protect myself or my patients.
Thank you again for your time.