ICU RN let go after 3 months

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Worked at a Level 1 Trauma Center, great learning experience. Floor orientation lasted 11 weeks total. 7 weeks working 2 twelve hour shifts/week on the floor and the rest of the 80 hour pay period being in the classroom. After finishing the class work, I worked 4 weeks on the floor working 3 12's/week.

My whole goal going in was to try to soak up as much as I could from my experience as possible, when on the floor I used a notebook to write down important notes about the unit. Always studied at home after work as I am single and had the time to do it so I would know the pathophysiology and fill the gaps of when I had questions medications, procedures, or conditions. I had it down so well I was able to draw the circulation of blood from the aortic arch to all the cerebral arteries where strokes were common (not too hard). Got to know and continued learning the different types of aneurysms, procedures, how they were done, I learned so much everyday... I always tried to help other people when asked.

However, I didn't get along with and tried to get along with my preceptor but personality wise we were just different. I asked a lot of questions as I am new, but with every question my preceptor always asked "why/what do think is going on?" so I would be in the middle of trying to figure out multiple drips for a patient and ask for tips on how to hook them up and get the "how do think they should be hooked up?" question back for example. I wouldn't know and eventually my preceptor would help me after trying to figure out how while family members of the patient in the room watched me struggle to figure it out. Looking back I should have asked for a different preceptor. Anyways, towards the end of my probationary period, I asked my preceptor how I was doing, and got the answer that I would be on my own in a couple of weeks. Then come to find out, my last day of my probation period, my preceptor didn't show up, called in "sick". Later in the day, I was called to the unit managers office to be notified that I wasn't a good fit for the unit. Much to my bewilderment, the main reason cited is that I didn't understand the pathophysiology and conditions well enough. I was so shocked at the moment and was basically speechless and didn't see any use in arguing with my manager about it considering that whose word would my manager take someone who has worked for 8 plus years or someone who worked for 11 weeks? However, I was referred to another unit within the hospital, but I still want to be in an icu and my manager said that I couldn't use them as a reference to get in another icu. Long rant, but would I be crazy to apply to an icu at another hospital and how do I sell my story?

I agree. there should have been weekly feedback so you could improve. It probably was for the best. don't get discouraged.

Specializes in Critical care.

I had an experience like this but as a student doing my Capstone. I almost didn't graduate because of it which was funny because I was in the top 10% of my class and had always gotten "exceeds expectations" on clinical evals. My preceptor basically expected me to have the same level of understanding as an experienced nurse- any time I asked questions about the care process or how to do things it was used against me as me not understanding "the bigger picture". The whole summer was a nightmare and it took my school a long time to realize that the problem was not with me. They eventually pulled me out of that site and let me finish my capstone hours with a preceptor they knew had been successful with students in the past (my first preceptor was a brand new preceptor they had never used before) and after that switch, everything went smoothly and I passed my evals with the new preceptor with flying colors. The psychological damage, though- I know it sounds ridiculous but sometimes I still tear up at the way my first preceptor made me feel. I felt so dumb, and stupid, and unsupported. She used to complain about me to her colleagues wide out in the open, as in I would walk in on them doing it and they would not bother to change the conversation topic. It was bad and my confidence is still recovering.

I am so sorry you went through something similar as well but I think it's a good thing you are out of there- it does not sound like a recoverable situation, through no fault of your own, of course. Good luck with your job interviews!

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