I made a decision!

I have been struggling with my current situation for about one month now. I'm currently an ED RN but I hate it, but I was scared of leaving before I had one year of acute care experience. I'm at 10 months now. There are nights without a charge, where I'm the person with the most experience; there are nights when I'm expected to "float" and "be available" and "triage" and such (aka charge) without me feelings comfortable with the position or able to say no (I tried). On top of that there are *a lot* of toxic people/LVNs and Techs working outside scope of practice/personality conflicts. So, on a whim I applied for and received two job offers in my dream city for Hospice RN.

I initially decided to turn them down, stick it out for one year, but I literally am having anxiety attacks about how bad it's going to be at work each night. I stopped doing all overtime, even though it leaves them even more short staffed, and just show up and do my job.

So, last night I talked with my closest friends and decided that enough was enough, I wanted the hospice RN position and it wasn't worth staying in this environment for another few months! So, I called my preferred company today to speak with my hiring manager---and she's on vacation until Monday. But that's okay, because I am settled and sure of my decision. It's taken me a long time and a lot of hemming and hawing, but I really think this is the best move for me.

Now, to wait until Monday to get a firm offer in writing so I can turn in my two weeks notice at my current job...