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Please disregard any grammar errors or disorganization in this post. I really am having a hard time staying focused and concentrating right now and I am just writing whatever comes to mind..Really!....:uhoh21:
I believed that I was lucky for several reasons.
I am the first one in my family to attend college and I am at one of the best schools and nursing programs in NJ.
I was doing well in Med Surg
I am working as a nursing aids in one of the best hospitals in South Jersey.
Until last week... I failed my first Med Surg exam--- 65 %... I had to retake it and this time it was 10 open-ended question--- which I thought I did well on. I just found out today, on the day of my Med Surg final ( which I know I would have done well on), that I failed the retake... :crying2:
:crying2: . So know I can't take the final a will fail the course. What really sucks is that I actually know the material, but I made very silly mistakes.:smackingf:smackingf:banghead:
:banghead:Plus I still have a Mental Health Nursing final in two days.
So what do I do now!!!!!!!??????
I'm thinking of switching my major to Psychology and after graduation, going into the accelerated nursing program at UMDNJ.
I am sooo shocked, sad and depressed---- I can't even cry anymore. I kind of feel numb.
I've been through sooo much in this nursing program and now its all over with only one more year left until graduation. C/O 2012.
I feel like I let myself, my family, my mentor, and my whole city of Camden down...
I just don't know what to do.When I am going through a rough time, I usually turn to religion, but I deconverted from Christianity last year and am now an atheist. I am actulay still going through the grieving process of deconversion and so I am even more depressed because I feel like I have no support system.
I really want to be a nurse and I know I will be a nurse:redbeathe:redbeathe:nurse::redbeathe:redbeathe.. I'll do what ever it takes.I guess it's just gonna take longer right ???
Oh and I have a Mental Health Nursing Final in less than two days and now I am having a hard time focusing on studying for that.
-Can someone cheer me up
-Give me some advice
-Tell me how to stay focused for this last final
-How to cope without religiously or family support
-Email me, IM me.
Wow, this post really touched me.
I too just failed out of my ADN program here in Arizona. I received a personal call from my professor a couple days after my final exam telling me that I missed passing by 2.5 points.
I was heart broken and was in absolute shock for a few hours. Speechless. Lost.
Looking back at my journey this first block I realized that in the beginning of the semester I didn't put the normal amount of effort and heart I usually put in for the first 2 exams and could never recover from it the rest of the semester.
I also felt like a failure not only to myself but also a disappointment to my family and my gf.
It was very hard for me especially because I attained so many close friendships my first block was very saddened that I wasn't going to be able to continue my journey with them. a
Luckily, with the support of everyone I was encouraged to apply for another BSN program in town. Got everything put together, took a couple tests, got reference letters from my professors. And now I'm waiting for a response to see if I could start a BSN program this upcoming fall! Worst case scenario I'll have to start Spring '12.
I've also fell away from religion the last couple years. Been a Christian my whole life it's been hard for me to deal with. But like a lot of the fellow allnurse community I do also agree with them that God loves you and will be there for you always. Even if you lose faith in him, he won't lose faith in you. Please stick with it. If this is what you want, don't stop until you've reached your end goal.
After hearing the news that I failed I thought of several different options that I could possibly do. But none of them include the satisfaction that I will receive like nursing can.
Keep the faith my friend.
jrsygirl
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Yeah I am sorry too:crying2:
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thanks for being honest, I rather here the truth even if it hurts :):) I'm going finish up at my current school with an another major which will another 3 or 4 semesters and then apply for some accelerated BSN programs and a few associate degree programs. I have already been at my school for so long so I would rather just finish up there. I think...
.But I will look into some LPN programs too to look at my options and even see if there are maybe some LPN to BSN programs.