....except I am not a nurse.I am a newly minted CNA who got my certification solely to get a job quickly in this state I moved to. I actually have a graduate medical degree and I am working on that. However I have kids and needed something ASAP. So here I am.I was blessed to be hired in an agency with health insurance and pay is ok. I was hired for days in a LTC facility. Its been over five months..and It has been downhill ever since.Firstly, I was floated on every floor . Ok. Working 4 12 hour shifts in a row. Ok. But in this facility CNAs act like LVNs doing things that are outside my scope- veinipuncture, EKGs, suppository, colostomy, inserting catheters, applying medicated ointments... So I was supposed to be trained and signed off on things, and given a preceptor, but my training has been all over the place. Plus, the people I followed either didn't do these things or refused to train or did not even offer help or guidance..even the RNs. before I was ready I was thrown on night shift which I wasn't hired for. And the LTC facility wasn't even running yet. Probation is over six months.I didn't do well on nights at all. And while I had a good rapport with patients I felt coworkers didn't care for me much. I don't gossip, I don't fraternize, I eat alone and just tried to do my job.Out of left field came a meeting with one of the five nurse managers. He listed five incidents from six months ago that I don't even remember - some involved patients that I didn't even have- all while I was supposedly training or on nights-and now I am under investigation.I do have a bargaining unit, but until this resolves I can't do patient care. So I feel like Nurse Jackie where she is scrubbing toilets and toiling in the basement- doing wierd scut work , being gossiped on and talked about, and made invisible.I do think my attitude- overwhelmed and frustrated- coupled with being a "Yankee" in a "hi y'all" fake environment didn't help. Where smiles become grimaces because you are trying hard not to cry.how do I get through this? And has anyone been through this?