Hey guys, I have been reading through these CNA threads trying to find some inspiration about how I feel. I have a clinical class in about an hour and I don't want to go. See, it's not the urine or feces or vomit or any of the smells that bother me, it's the LTC environment. My mother used to work in one and I absolutely hated going to visit her there and when I was younger I really didn't know why. Now that I am doing my training I really do understand why I really really dislike being in the LTC environment. Please, I'm not trying to offend anyone I just need help getting through this. I have had some traumatic events occur in my life that has left me afraid of death and to be somewhere where the aura is "death" twists my insides to the point where I want to quit. Every single resident at the facility I am at is going to die soon. And I know what you guys are thinking, "don't look at it that way" well, I'm not an idiot--they are dying and suffering and alone and my depression is severely affected by this. I really want to quit because I can't bare to deal with the sadness that is there. At least at a hospital you have an opportunity to see most or some of your patients recover to enjoy life. Should I quit? Is there any way to overcome this? Am I alone in how I feel? Is there anyone out there that has felt this and overcome it and what did you do? Sorry so many questions. I really would love to accomplish this but I have never disliked being somewhere so much. I feel like a kid being dragged to daycare everytime I step into that place. I'm so disappointed in myself.