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I'm five months into my nursing career, and I'm finding myself very discouraged about nursing and worrying that maybe I'm not cut out for it. I'm working in a Surgical IMCU at a large medical center, and I'm considering trying to switch to SICU in a month or so.
What worries me is that lately I have been finding myself getting very irritable at work and have even started complaining that I hate my job. I think part of the problem is I have a very hard time taking breaks when things are busy (which is always), so I end up going nonstop from about 7am to 2 or 3 pm, when things start to slow down a bit (i.e., I've finished assessments, 10 and 12 meds, and all the new orders from am rounds). I realize that going 7 or 8 hours straight with no break for a drink of water or a snack is probably part of the problem, but I have a really hard time stopping to take a 30 minute lunch break when there's all this work to be done, even though most of it can probably wait. I'm worried that I'm going to burn out really quickly (I already dread going to work and have bad days about 90% of the time).
What really scares me is that people say the unit I'm on is relatively easy, compared to other units on the hospital. I'm probably crazy to consider SICU, since I can't even handle the unit I'm on, but it seems like SICU would at least offer more variety and intellectual challenge compared to the our SIMC population, which is largely chronic vent weans post-CABG. I'm also getting really tired of patients with it enough to use their call bells, and love the thought of having a patient on propofol (I know; I'm a horrible person).
Am I doomed? Maybe I'm just not cut out for bedside nursing. Intellectually, I really enjoy critical care nursing, but in practice, I get so irritated. What should I do?