Help please...new specialty. Awful nurses.

[LandD_RN_chica]

I have 2 yrs prior experience as a RN and I recently took a position not too long ago in a new specialty. I love the new specialty and the patients, however I dislike my new coworkers and apparently they dislike me too. I didn't start disliking them until I heard they were all talking about me behind my back and throwing me under the bus to management while smiling in my face. I feel like I'm in 3rd grade. I talk too much, they talk about me. Now I don't talk to anyone, I'm considered antisocial and mean. All of this has resulted in meetings with management and my probation being extended. One of the head doctors wants me on a committee with him to help him roll out some new things in my prior area of expertise and I was told I'm not allowed to participate or give any suggestions about my unit until I am there for 6 months. I feel like everyone there is setting me up to fail and I want some input on what I should do. I could go back to my old job in a heartbeat and my old nurse manager would take me back, but I do love the speciality I am currently in, but hate the situation I find myself in with coworkers. I cry and I'm not a crier by any means. It's absolutely ridiculous and I feel like my every move is reported back to management and that they are just trying to get rid of me. Help please. Thanks.

[LandD_RN_chica]

Management is well aware of the problem. The unit is like a revolving door. Everyone there is miserable and I feel like they are pulling me down with them. They all talk about getting new jobs everyday. I was with a different preceptor today (the most miserable one who makes every new nurses and even older nurses lives a living hell) and I had a terrible day. I cried in front of a patient. And I had another patient ask me why the nurse was such a b$&@! And how I was controlling myself so well and not snapping on her. I'm at the end of my rope. It truly sucks because I love this specialty and it is truly where my heart is in nursing and i love my patients but I think I may have to start looking for a new job or go back to my old one. Everyone keeps saying stick with it, but they don't have to deal with this heartless human being who is a single 30 something and miserable with her life and wants to make everyone else's life miserable. Ugh. Tears.

[anotherone, BSN, RN]

Going to management with things co-workers do wrong... I don't see that as being a problem all the time.... either....... What I usually do in these situations is ignore them all, very aloof, or kill them with kindness OR if I see someone I can buddy buddy with I do that

[LandD_RN_chica]

I actually spoke to management. I shouldnt be crying in work. Especially in front of a patient who was crying herself due to pain and she felt bad for me! Mgmt spoke to the patient. The patient told them how awful she was to me. Management emailed the director of the unit and I don't know what's going to happen. Now I'm scared it will get even worse once she gets wind of this. ?

[sharpeimom]

It's so hard to work somewhere like that without losing sight of who you really are deep down inside. My first job was similar but it was easier once I quietly began to bring in cookies, brownies, bagels, and on one vey cold day, some homemade soup. I borrowed the church's 5 gallon slow cooker and made my grandmother's chicken noodle soup. I put it in the breakroom with paper cups, plastic spoons, crackers and a sign that said, "Help yourself." No indication of who had made it.

It took about a month before someone figured out that I was the food fairy and things began to thaw out. All it takes is a couple of friends to beak the ice.

[LandD_RN_chica]

Thank you. That seems to be the consensus. I really don't want to try and win over people who are setting me up to fail. It's ridiculous. I just want to meet them outside In the parking lot and beat them up. I mean they are making me feel like less of a nurse. Like I can't do my job. It's sickening.