Hating my first job

[Rachee7119, ASN, RN]

First post here. I've been up all night reading other posts trying to get some advice, so I guess I should make my own post. I am fulltime at a large hospital, an hour away, on an oncology floor. I am also PRN at a small hospital that is only 20 minutes away. I AM MISERABLE at the large hospital. The staff is super nice, but they give me way too many patients. I am already burnt out, and it's only been a month. The small hospital has offered me full time. I would love to quit the larger hospital.  I feel like a big piece of poop because I'm not even off orientation yet at the large hospital. Is this normal? I'm still a baby nurse. I hate oncology. They have turned it into a oncology/med surg floor to accommodate even more patients. Every bed is always full. I'm nervous about quitting. I need encouragement or similar experiences? Thank you!

[SmilingBluEyes]

I would quit. Commute time and misery to me are the reasons why.

[travelnursefuture]

It sounds like you have already answered your own question. Trust your gut. You do not have to stay if you already have a better offer at a place that you are familiar with and doesn't come with as much stress. As a new nurse, its normal to feel a little bad about leaving but that feeling will go away overtime when you realize you chose your mental well being over not looking a certain way. They will be okay.

[Blatant Shannon]

This sounds like my first job too! Except I didn't have a second job. The only regret that I ever had is that I didn't leave sooner. Skip orientation and tell them to find another nurse willing to work themselves to the bone for them. 

Nursing is the only field I can think of that doesn't care if you quit one job and do another. Take advantage of that perk! Give them only the amount of time they require as a notice and not a day more. 

[Rachee7119, ASN, RN]

Wanted to update!!

So the same day that I posted this I went straight to the manager when I got there. I had a notice written up and told her I was happier somewhere else. She was hostile and started interrogating me about the other facility. I felt like I really owed her no explanation but answered all her questions. She then let me know my assignment for the day was being changed, and to turn in my badge when I clocked out. I was told to sit with an agitated, confused geriatric patient (which I figured out on my own since I was given no report!). The patient hit me in my glasses and threatened me. I told them I was scared to be in there with the patient but they left me in there. And my relief was half an hour late. I survived my last shift ever at that awful place. I am so much happier at the other facility! Thank you to everyone that commented!

 

[Blatant Shannon]

Rachee7119, sorry for that experience. These administrators forget that they are considered Leaders. I always push to be what I want to be seen as and you did what was right. At least you made it through that shift and are happier! That deserves praise.

[Scoutislife]

With days like those, it is always an affirmation that you did the right thing. Congrats on moving forward and here's to your better future! Cheers OP.