getting back into the heart of nursing.

Oct24, 2002, we lost our 17 almost 18 yo son to a traumatic car accident, he lived for 61/2 hours, got 78 units of blood and died in our arms, his dad and mine, since then i have had post traumatic stress. i took 3 years off. but, i slowly am trying to get back, i did work in a nursing home, charge nurse of 6 cna's (if we were lucky) Anyway, i presently am doing home care for a woman that has ms. the pay is only $8.75, an hour. But i am ready and need to make more money than that. But, im a little, no, a lot scared. of going back full time. especially to a hospital, since i know what i still see in my mind.

I think going back to nursing may be just the ticket for you. Have you considered working in an area where you are less likely to deal with trauma? Perhaps a physician's office or (like me) in psych?

And don't be too concerned about what you don't remember. This is like riding a bike--it will come back, plus you can get "training wheels" (a refresher course or a good orientation) until you are ready to get back full force.

God's blessings on you, hon.

I'm so sorry for what you have endured...I cannot imagine the grief you must feel. Just want to give you a cyber hug and encourage you to care for yourself. Nursing will be there for you when you feel ready. :)