getting back into the heart of nursing.

[nurse1995]

Oct24, 2002, we lost our 17 almost 18 yo son to a traumatic car accident, he lived for 61/2 hours, got 78 units of blood and died in our arms, his dad and mine, since then i have had post traumatic stress. i took 3 years off. but, i slowly am trying to get back, i did work in a nursing home, charge nurse of 6 cna's (if we were lucky) Anyway, i presently am doing home care for a woman that has ms. the pay is only $8.75, an hour. But i am ready and need to make more money than that. But, im a little, no, a lot scared. of going back full time. especially to a hospital, since i know what i still see in my mind.

[chris_at_lucas_RN, RN]

Oct24, 2002, we lost our 17 almost 18 yo son to a traumatic car accident, he lived for 61/2 hours, got 78 units of blood and died in our arms, his dad and mine, since then i have had post traumatic stress. i took 3 years off. but, i slowly am trying to get back, i did work in a nursing home, charge nurse of 6 cna's (if we were lucky) Anyway, i presently am doing home care for a woman that has ms. the pay is only $8.75, an hour. But i am ready and need to make more money than that. But, im a little, no, a lot scared. of going back full time. especially to a hospital, since i know what i still see in my mind.

I am so, so sorry for your loss. I love my children so much, and I cannot imagine the intense void you must still feel.

I think going back to nursing may be just the ticket for you. Have you considered working in an area where you are less likely to deal with trauma? Perhaps a physician's office or (like me) in psych?

And don't be too concerned about what you don't remember. This is like riding a bike--it will come back, plus you can get "training wheels" (a refresher course or a good orientation) until you are ready to get back full force.

God's blessings on you, hon.

[mattsmom81]

I'm so sorry for what you have endured...I cannot imagine the grief you must feel. Just want to give you a cyber hug and encourage you to care for yourself. Nursing will be there for you when you feel ready. :)