I know what you're going through.. I'm pretty much in the same situation. I sort of got the idea about nursing from my senior year biology teacher, since I enjoyed biology, it seemed to be a good idea at the time.
So I took all the pre-reqs, getting mostly a's and a few b's, and being able to balance and maintain a schedule I enjoyed (was able to study and still had time to mess around)..
And I was also pressured to make a choice about accepting the nursing school invitation or not (came at an extremely bad time - studying for a microbiology final during the summer).
Now that i'm in it and have done a week, I've already felt extremely stressed and bogged down. Already cried and moped, consulted many family members about advice on what to do, etc. Even considered dropping out already, and started to consider other career choices (history - fun but probably not a good money maker, and natural sciences)!
The study load was/is also very large, with a test this upcoming friday (
But, the advice I can offer as a fellow student nurse, is to try and find your groove, attempt to be content with your courses (liking every subject is rare - hated my tech writing course but was able to finish it), consult people who will give you a fair answer, and try to talk with the other sns too, it's unlikely that you're the only one with these feelings (look at me
But, if it still doesn't pan out, talk with your counselors about what you really enjoy doing and take a career assessment test. Try to have a back-up plan is what I'm saying. Using me as an example, if I decide nursing isn't for me and drop from the program and classes, I'm not sure if I'm exempt from this spectacular law in texas that states students of all college levels (aa, bs/ba, ms/ phD - not sure on the last one) may ONLY DROP 6 CLASSES TOTAL
and when they reach 6, they are no longer allowed to register for classes in the state of texas
(at least, that's what i've been told... could be partially accurate/inaccurate)
And the whole thing about disappointing others and such? Pfft, it's good to consider it but don't let it govern your decisions. What's the point of spending 'X' amount of years and 'Y' amount of cash for something you'll be miserable doing?
And if you still want/need someone to talk to, toss a pm to me.. I usually check this site often for encouragement and funnies.
Best of luck to you.