I am not sure why this bothers me but I was always told that I would establish close friendships during Nursing School and it just never happened for me. I did not enjoy study groups; I liked studying on my own. I was not part of any cliques nor was I involved with any drama. I attended Student Nurse Association meetings and events but I can not say that I became close with anyone. I had many acquaintances but I was not in school to "make friends." After failed attempts in other areas of academia prior to Nursing School, I was both serious and determined to do this. Perhaps I was a bit "standoffish"
In a way, I believe that my lack of social involvement during Nursing School did attribute to much of my academic success but at the same time, I still felt like I was a loner and different from the rest. I felt like an outcast throughout Nursing School. I always would get good grades so it seemed that people only wanted to talk to me to ask what my secret was. In some ways, I felt looked up to and in other ways I felt used. I felt like everyone had someone during school but I stood all alone. What bothers me the most is that I did not get to make fun, lasting memories with any fellow students. It is the other students who understands what Nursing students go through the most and I did not get to experience the special bond of having a close Nursing School buddy. I realize that I still finished successfully and I am a working, practicing RN.
Has anyone else ever experienced this feeling of regret?
