I've been nursing for almost 2 decades, mostly med/surg and some tele. I was offered a position about 6 months in outpatient endo, it sort of came my way. I took it but the 5 days a week, on call all hours of the night and the technology just about killed me. I had a talk to my boss and we parted on good terms. The only position that was availbale to me in our small town was Rehab nursing. I really did not know much about it but took becasue I have a mortage and need the insurance for a sick husband. It's a tiny dept. and everyone knows everyone elses business. Currently a witch hunt is being done on me and I have a long list of complaints about me, QA's etc. I have always been a good nurse with a respected reputation but now I feel ganged up on and a meeting is in store where I think I will get fired. My attitude has been in question and I must confess short of being a great nurse I am concerned about the constant lifting of very heavy dead weight patients. We do have machines in storage but I already got QA'd using one on this one patient that weighted 300, CVA and had to urniate every 30 minuetes. My fear is that I know seem unstable to the other managers in the hospital about getting a med/surg or tele job back. I have even considered working nights but as much as I see the advantages my body will be shot in a few months and I can't afford to be ill again. Doe's anyone have any suggestions or hints as to how to handle this. If a beg to stay on I can't say it with an honest heart, I love the patients and feel thier pain but I am a weakling, I'm not sure where my heart is. I already took changes and look unstable, I am very embrassed. I wish I could go to abother hospital where I can start fresh but I live out in the nature's land. Help me put this in perspective. Kitten