how hasnt it changed me might be an easier question......
like anything else in life, there are positives and negatives...
I am happy to say that nursing has made me far more assertive than I would have ever imagined being . From someone who used to avoid conflict at all cost , I now realize that conflict is a normal part of life, and can be dealt with ..... if not , just pummel them til they listen (jk)
I have a completely new appreciation for life, not just life, quality of life...... it has to be said that I dont take anything for granted anymore, I really do live each day to the fullest.
patience was never my strongsuit growing up (at times it still isnt) but for the most part, I find that I just take things as they come and dont stress over the small stuff.
Idealistic perhaps,but I still do go home knowing that I've made a difference, to me , you just cant beat that feeling.
becoming a nurse in itself was challenging , so many times I wanted to give up , my father who probably could have, didnt want to help me out financially , and my mom couldnt help me out financially , so I took out a loan (which i am paying off now of course) , worked all through nursing school, and focused on the outcome , not the huge amount of debt I was getting myself into .
I used to be afraid of illness and death , purposely kept away from hospitals and funerals , going through nursing school and becoming a nurse forced me to face those fears and realize that illness and death do not always have to be horribly frightening ordeals.
I think nursing has given me a perspective , a perspective that few people get from their work, the ability to see all sides to a story, put yourself in someone elses shoes, and through it all, manage to offer that hot comodity we call hope.
nursing has also caused me great lack of sleep , a new slew of curse words to my vocabulary , much frustration and stress and more than once an exasperated sigh and the question of "why am I doing this?!?!"
my non nursing friends cant seem to understand why we do what we do, the pay isnt great considering all we do , the hours suck, we work holidays, deal with the ill ,face death daily and get less respect then fast food restaurant workers some of the time.
sure if you look at it that way you might wonder
but if you've had my experiences, it would be so clear, there is nothing else I'd rather do
hokey - maybe , honest - yup