"Bad" Evaluation..I'm So Frustrated and ready to quit!! - page 4

I transferred to my hospital's ICU/CCU at the end of February. Anytime a nurse transfers departments, they evaluate you at 45 and 90 days after you started the new job. I've been an RN for 5 years... Read More

  1. by   RNforLongTime
    One of the first things I did when I got the ICU position is become a member of th AACN. I don't know where the nearest chapter of the organizaton is. Probably in Cleveland.

    I am not one to confront someone about wronging me. I feel as though I wasn't given enough guidance. See none of the night shifters LIKE precepting newbies in the unit because they aren't "qualified" preceptors so they aren't getting the extra 50 cents a hour differential. There is a course that has to be completed through the Nursing Ed. dept in order to become an official preceptor and get the extra 50 cents.

    Its almost as though they WANT me to fail or quit. Oh if I could get a chance to work in the ICU on day shift that would be a dream but until some of the old timers retire, one nurse has 31 years seniority (she precepted me on days) and another has 22 years I'm stuck where I'm at plus I like working nights.

    I'm just gonna keep everything that the AHN told me in my eval in mind when working and question the hell out of them all! Then they'll probably run to the AHN to tell her I ask too many questions. If that were to happen then I'd scream!!
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  3. by   Sleepyeyes
    (((((Kelly))))))) and ((((((Mario))))

    "Never give up; never surrender."

    --Ok, so it's from Galaxy Quest. But it's a good mantra. :spin:

    I had someone criticize me where I am now after giving me an extremely heavy assignment (which I thought I did pretty well with) and then she topped it off with a 15-minute lecture on getting done on time. I know I must be gaining confidence, because my first and only thought was "Give me 6 months, honey, I'll be running this unit....."
  4. by   Jenny P
    Way to go Kelly! Don't give up; develop a strategy and go for it! And whoever it was that said that you need to write your side of your eval is right. You do have the right to do that and have it put in your permanent file; even if it is after the fact.

    After reading your posts here since I joined this BB, I believe you are a good, caring nurse because you always give good advice and refer to your patients as people rather than objects. You can do ICU nursing and you will be good at it; so don't let ANYONE rain on your parade! Okay?
  5. by   RNforLongTime
    Thanks Jenny P,

    I wanna come and work in YOUR ICU!!! Ha ha--if only that were possible. Although my husband does have realtives in Ely, MN.....Monday is a new day so I'm gonna try to change my attitude and ask ask ask questions till I'm blue in the face..if I get to work in the unit and aren't floated out to the floor.
  6. by   Jenny P
    And you know what Kelly? It would be great to have you work in my unit, too! Of course, Ely is quite a bit north of the Twin Cities (where I work) and I don't think they do heart surgeries there in Ely, either.

    But if you did work in my unit, we'd sure have fun! The night crew is a bit quirky on my unit with our own unique personality (lots of guys, several older nurses-including me, and a few younger gals); and having you on board with us would help even out the odds a bit.
  7. by   RNforLongTime
    I dunno, after reading everyone's posts, I'm begining to think that where I am at isn't the best place to stay! I obviously cannot trust the night shift nurses, that's for sure. If they saw me doing something wrong(nothing that caused any harm to pt's), shouldn't they have told me right then and there rather than wait and tattle to the AHN? None of them have done anything to 'take me under their wing" and I just don't feel as if I belong.
  8. by   live4today
    kaknurse...you are absolutely correct in saying a nurse who is doing something wrong should be told right then and there rather than wait and tattle to the AHN. Let them know this, and warn them that if they don't start being more helpful to you that it is you who will pay a visit to the AHN...and that you have forewarned them already as to your sincere intentions. Don't let them run you away from a job that you like...if you like it that is...otherwise...find a new one...nurses are needed everywhere...don't have to put up with drama all the time from the nurses who don't think enough of you to embrace your expertise anyway. (((hugs))) and :kiss
  9. by   RNforLongTime
    Thanks Renee!
  10. by   Jenny P
    And I agree with Renee wholeheartedly!
  11. by   RNforLongTime
    I updated my resume this afternoon and e-mailed the nursing recruiter at another local hospital to set up an interview for later this week. I still want to work where I'm at, for right now. I want to work in one of the other hospital's ICU's so I can build upon the skills that I already have and get better ones as this hospital is bigger and is a trauma hospital(the one I work at now is not). We hardly ever use Swans and IABP's at my current facility and the bigger hospital uses them on a daily basis.

    I'm gonna give things a chance to get better. I'm gonna be sure to watch my back though. I can't trust certain nurses that's for sure and I have a hard time working with people I cannot trust. I don't see myself confronting these people as that is not in my nature, I just cant do that.

    I got a great eval after my 6 weeks of days and the day shift preceptor, who's worked in ICU for over 20 yrs, didn't note any major faults such as the night shifters did. That's why I was so upset by all of this. They never said a word to me until eval time! And I was still on orientation for 3 of those 7 weeks!!!
  12. by   mattsmom81
    It sounds like you need an ally...is there one of the group on nights who is LESS *****y than the rest? One who you could approach and ask in a very complimentary way to be your mentor? Sometimes a little schmooze and complimentary approach will work wonders with old burnt nurses

    You could consider asking for a group meeting too...and tell them you want to do well, and you really need their support and want THEM to be proud of you.....sometimes this works and sometimes not but I figure it's worth a shot....it softened up the two old witches I worked with when I was younger.....

    "What can I do to be a better team member on night shift?"
    "What do you suggest I do to improve my performance and become a good critical care nurse?"

    These are some questions you might consider asking them...since they have been uncomplimentary to you, ask them for input...put THEM on the spot.

    Involving others with your success can work wonders, I have found....I also got a *****y director 'on my side' once with this approach.

    If they are truly ugly, evil people this will not work...then I say its best to go to a more positive place. BUT if they are burnt and feeling used and abused, sometimes an approach like this can give them a boost and they soften up a bit! Good luck and don't let the turkeys get you down!

    Check out the AACN website...I'm a member and LOVE it!
  13. by   Brownms46
    I agree Mattmom...have a group meeting...and put them on the spot...with the ADN sitting right there... And ..ooooh and bring some food too..