Dianah it is a pretty dark book. We do choose a different book for each month
Hi Tweety NJ22 and TMB
Stars I don't think it's cold to consider what the consequences will be when he dies, there will be a lot of things to do and adjust to and you will need to prepare and plan for that
Another fairly good day at work, hoping it continues today. Did counseling during lunch, decided that next year I will go someplace other than Madison. I need to habituate myself to change, and going to the same place over and over doesn't help that
After work went for a walk as the rain stopped for a bit, then came home and outreached the dealer to see if they have any used cars I would be interested in. Found out they don't, but one of the models is in my price range as a new car, so that's another possibility. Lot of anxiety around that
Nothing really planned for after work today except exercise
Will rain all of today and probably most of Sat and Sun as well, will be in the upper 50s today
Stars, I remember a short while ago saying that I had a feeling your husband was headed for a grim outcome and you seemed to understand that. You can rest easy that you tried and did everything you could for him, and it's out of your hands and you have support. Again, I wish you peace during these emotional and trying times.
TMB, lovely photo! One of these days I'm going to Alaska on tour hopefully before it all melts.
Ado, not sure what (RIF) means, but so sorry to hear you're in distress. Hope you feel better on Saturday.
A wave of depression hit me out of the blue Friday afternoon and I became lethargic. I won't go into it, but I snapped out of it and just sat with it for a while. Sometimes it's better to just acknowledge my feelings, explore them and not say that I should feel something else.
I had vegan Taco Bell for lunch for a treat and it was good but probably too salty as my BP was 150/90 later. Coincidentally a lifestyle medicine doctor I follow on instagram did a short live lecture on blood pressure. I'm going try a few of her suggestions. Later it was a more reasonable 132/77. She said the goal was below 115 for ideal health and 120 or above was hypertension. I'll never reach that goal. Sigh......
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Last afternoon, the dgt and her youngest girl came down here, and got a motel room. Today the older grand-dgt is supposed to drive down to be able to visit with her grandfather. I got up fairly early (for me!) at 10 AM. Haven''t heard anything from the hospital or from the dgt so far this morning. I was given to understand that at some point they will come over here to Nannie's so I can go see hubby. I am "sitting here in limbo" (reggae song from the old album The Harder They Fall.) and hope to hear from SOMEBODY pretty soon. Maybe I should call the dgt...
I am getting to the point where I forget if I've taken my AM meds; sometimes if I wake up real early I will take my meds and then go back to bed. I have an AM and a PM mediset but I let them run out without refilling them, so I am not sure where I stand at the moment. UGH. If I start getting the 'zing-zing-zings' I'll know it's because I didn't take them. Too much manure in my wheelbarrow right now, so who knows? I don't want to double up on any of the meds, though. Guess I ortta fill the medisets so I can get back and stay on track.
Weary, tired. Going to make that call to hear how hubby is doing. Will let ya know what I find out.....
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Stars, I remember a short while ago saying that I had a feeling your husband was headed for a grim outcome and you seemed to understand that. You can rest easy that you tried and did everything you could for him, and it's out of your hands and you have support. Again, I wish you peace during these emotional and trying times.
TMB, lovely photo! One of these days I'm going to Alaska on tour hopefully before it all melts.
Ado, not sure what (RIF) means, but so sorry to hear you're in distress. Hope you feel better on Saturday.
A wave of depression hit me out of the blue Friday afternoon and I became lethargic. I won't go into it, but I snapped out of it and just sat with it for a while. Sometimes it's better to just acknowledge my feelings, explore them and not say that I should feel something else.
I had vegan Taco Bell for lunch for a treat and it was good but probably too salty as my BP was 150/90 later. Coincidentally a lifestyle medicine doctor I follow on instagram did a short live lecture on blood pressure. I'm going try a few of her suggestions. Later it was a more reasonable 132/77. She said the goal was below 115 for ideal health and 120 or above was hypertension. I'll never reach that goal. Sigh......