New Grad RN Angst - page 4

Today is my day off after working three days in a row. However, my eyes popped open at 0530 and would not close again. My brain immediately went into review mode. Shoot! I forgot to give that... Read More

  1. by   voxjessica
    I'm saving, printing, and hanging this article on my fridge. I'm about to turn 35, and I've applied to an RN program. If all goes well, I will be graduating when I'm 38, and I, too, am an anxiety-ridden worrier. I want so badly to be good at this job that I haven't even started school, yet I have anxious moments doubting my ability to actually one day do it. It has crossed my mind that I'll stress myself out once I'm finally out there doing it. I need to remember others feel- or have felt - the way I probably will. Thank you for your honesty.
  2. by   hope4673
    I just started orienting on the floor last week and I am totally nervous for when I go out on my own, gulp. It seems so foreign to care for 5-6 patients on a normal day. My preceptor makes it seem so easy. My problem is I am not Type A personality, I am very adaptable to chaos and interruptions which is a good thing for the floor I am on, but at the same I forget simple things. I run back and forth too much and probably have the worst time management of any nurse haha. We'll see what happens when I get off on my own!
  3. by   BSNtraumaqueenRN
    What you are feeling is normal! I feel that way sometimes! Even experienced nurses feel that way!
  4. by   Flatlander
    I've been in your shoes too. The crying and worrying seems to me in part due to physical and emotional exhaustion. The reality on busy acute floors is often 12 hours without breaks or meals. An absolutely insane pace, in other words. I call it brutal and completely unnecessary. The only reason for it is not providing enough staff to ensure a humane workplace. Don't get me wrong. This is where I also choose to do my work and gain the skills to make me a well-rounded nurse. But I believe the research bears me out, that the pace and lack of time to eat, rest, and re-charge is a disservice to nurses and patients alike. Experienced nurses are better able to handle this I suppose, because they've adjusted and can organize and prioritize better. My heart goes out to all the new nurses struggling to "make it" their first year.
    Hope, hang in there. I hear it gets easier as you go along.
    I hope you have a great team in your floor. I feel that no matter where you work, if you have a good team that supports each other, the job is easier.
    Congratulations on your job Hope, and now go and be the best nurse you can be
  6. by   blueyedgaze
    I have been searching the internet to find out if the emotions I am feeling as a new nurse are normal. This website (specifically this article) is amazing. It is so wonderful to know that you are not alone! I started working at a pretty hectic ER one month ago and some days are awesome and some days I cry myself to sleep at night just to wake up with an enormous level of anxiety as I drive to work the next day. I need to look at this experience as a learning opportunity. Take everything in like a sponge and hopefully get through this first year as best as I can!
    @ blueyedgaze, I wish I can tell you that I know what you mean, but I do not. However, as normal as it may be for this process to occur, try to find a day where you can disconnect completely and recharge. I think your idea of approaching this as a learning experience is great, but then again, do not we not all approch it from that perspective?
    Sending you a big hug and as I told Hope, hang in there, the days will turn into weeks, then months, then years, and you will have transitioned from novice to expert
  8. by   lucypear
    I feel the exact same way. Had my first "super crazy no time to breathe" shift last night. Got home and although exhausted, I lied awake for hours thinking "did I do everything right?" "Should I have done more?" "What did I miss?" etc.
  9. by   Twisted Nurse
    Great article! Many new grads like myself can absolutely relate to what you have to say. I'm going on 4 months on my own without my preceptor. I can absolutely relate with the lack of confidence, the constant self doubt and worry, the overwhelming stress of keeping up with assessing your pts, passing their meds, doing procedures, dealing with their needs, and micromanaging everything else, and the paranoia of whether or not you missed anything. I work in the cardiac telemetry unit, and I'm always nervous because these patients are extremely sick and it can be very stressful at times.

    But the good news is you passed nursing school! You passed the boards! Nursing isn't easy. No one expects you to know everything once you get out of school. In all honesty, it's ok to feel this way. I, personally, would be worried if you didn't. I always get frustrated when my time management suffers, or why I don't know certain things. The answer is simple. These experienced nurses have been doing it for a long time. They developed a routine. They honed their skills. They have a wealth of experience. It really does take 1-2 years to become comfortable.

    So, just remember you're just starting out. Take time to learn and gain experience. Be patient with yourself! Focus on the positive. While it's human nature to dwell on the negative, if you focus on the positive, it will become your reality and you can progress forward. Find out who your resources are so you know who you can turn too. You can only do so much, you're just one person. When things become too overwhelming and you're in the verge of tears.......take a step back....breath......and get back into the groove of things. Most importantly, make sure you take time for yourself! Nursing is very rewarding, but it is also very stressful. You can't take care of a person well if you don't take care of yourself first!
  10. by   ERnurse_kayla
    Great post to read. Honestly is helping me to relax and get to sleep before working in the a.m. I too am a new graduate nurse, just started a little over a month ago in an emergency department. It is helpful to know that others put there are feeling the same way that I do. I come home every night with such bad anxiety that I did something.wrong or forgot something in report. I totally understand how you are feeling. It's not an easy career! Hopefully the anxiety will dissipate with time for the both of us. We can do it!
  11. by   vnguyen3
    I literally took the words right out of my mouth! I am the same EXACT WAY. Step down unit, 5 patients, always running around. I too wonder if I was alone in not knowing what the hell I'm doing most of the time. Every other GN seems to be getting better, and I feel like I'm the only one who's scared and intimidated. I worked night shifts, one time (my 5th week into floor orientation with 3 patients) I went home, fell asleep, and wake up 2 hours later crying for like an hour LOL. I'm so glad I'm not alone in this. Thank you for sharing, and thank you veteran nurses for your kind support!
  12. by   kmiller255
    I feel exactly the same way. I work nights on a med/surg trauma unit at a very busy teaching hospital and I am about a month into my orientation. The first three weeks I oriented on days, then had a week of nights, then have to cross train on another unit on days then once again go back to nights. I can't even keep track of my own schedule! When I get off my shift sometimes I don't even know how I feel. Exhausted, happy I made it through the night, nervous I missed something, depressed, tearful for no reason and anxious because after the tossing and turning throughout the day and lack of sleep I have to pick my chin up and do it all again. Everyone on my unit for the most part are really supportive and helpful, but it is so much stress as a new grad. I feel like all I do is chase my tail all day. Everyone keeps saying if you can make it on this floor you can make it anywhere and it will get easier. Usually I am very organized and great with time management, but one set back at the start of a shift seems to spiral out of control for the rest of the shift. I do like nursing and still feel like I made the right choice, but my goodness I can't wait to at least feel like I am half way comfortable in what I am doing!
  13. by   acjb2004
    I can not thank you enough for this article. I work on a very busy Surgical Unit, this is my 2nd week out of orientation. During my orientation I absolutely loved it, my preceptor kept telling me how well I am doing, I thought to myself ok this isn't so bad. Oh man was I wrong! I constantly worry that I will miss something. I am very fortunate to have an amazing team of nurses to work with, they are incredible asset and don't mind me asking questions. But the true worries begin when I get home, I get so anxious and go over every little thing, I get to the point I can't eat, I am starting to have trouble sleeping. Last night I woke up at 1.30am freaking out that I forgot to take tele monitor off my patient when I send him home. I went over my had 20 million times and finally realized he didn't have tele monitor on him in the first place. I had 2 days off and I am going back tomorrow for 3 day shift and I am terrified to no end. I pray it will get easier, I have always wanted to be a nurse ever since I can remember, now at almost 40years old I fulfilled my dream. I love taking care of my patients and love everything about nursing, I just hope I can get more confident and it will get easier with time.