Hi Imgn 78,
I am really sorry you didn't pass. Let me say that first and foremost. It is one of the worst feelings in the world. Your self esteem is in the gutter and you don't feel you can even get up to dress yourself in the morning. Allow yourself to feel this way. Go through the emotions and LEARN from them.
Now, when you're ready to hear it Imgn, try, try, try again. You can and WILL conquer this test when it is God's time for you. There is a reason you failed. It is meant for you to give it your all again.
I felt the same way you did after I failed my second time. I didn't want to leave the house for weeks. But then slowly, each day I felt better, and eventually I faced my coworkers and family and told them all I failed. I claimed that I failed and told myself, I WILL NOT let this test kill my goal of becoming a nurse.
Now I write you after passing my third time. I encourage you to do the same. Claim your failure and know that it is a trial you have to endure but by doing just that you will learn what you need to do in the future to pass.
I will be praying for you,