Nursing, well it would have to be the most hardest jobs I have ever done. I have done Patient Care Work in hospital and yep that was hard too but I could manage that role. NOw being an RN and being placed in a very advanced ward Cardiac, I am not sure that I can really fulfill the RN role as best i should do. The other night I mentioned to a younger yet experienced nurse that I just feel very fake in this role as nurse. Things we learn in uni are just not what they seem in the real world of nursing. I said I feel helpless and really stupid pretending that I can do this. Look after patients after their post op CABG or thoracic cases and play the role to the patients that I truly have worldly nursing experience and understand 100% what they are going through... I dont. Yah I am learning but even though I get constructive criticism of things that I am not doing well and that adds to my learning, yet I feel so dumb and incompetent and that is how I feel fake as a nurse. I am 3 months in to my Graduate Nurse program and I am not sure if I will stick to the ward after my 12 month period.
I feel much more comfortable in General Surgical cases rather than Cardiac Nursing. Will consider maternity down the track. Anyone else feeling like a fish out of water:uhoh3: