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i feel so incredibly guilty that i went searching for a forum to discuss this. i am a new graduate on an intermediate icu in orientation on my 2nd week. it has been going well and my preceptor is good. today i made a stupid, careless error. i had a patient receiving decadron 4mg bid. i gave them their 0900 dose no problem. then at 1200 i went to give them their other meds and i gave another dose of decadron 4mg that wasn't due until 2100. i had another patient getting decadron 4mg at 1200 and red the wrong emar when i pulled it up on the computer. i gave the extra dose of decadron and then looked at the correct emar again and realized i wasn't supposed to give it after my preceptor asked me what meds i had just given. i feel so bad because first off, i usually check all my meds with my preceptor beforehand if i haven't given them that shift. then idk why i didn't check the name on the top of the screen i just looked straight at the meds. my preceptor was obviously annoyed because its on her name as well but she was still supportive as i fought back tears and swallowed hard. we went straight to the anm and they said that there is no harm done, we called the md and did an incident report.
i already feel incompetent on this unit beccause of the acuity and so much to learn that very different from nursing school. i went to lunch and couldn't even swallow my food. i tried to finish the shift with some dignity but it was difficult. i went through nursing school without any incidents in clinical at all and am somewhat of a perfectionist. i am still disgusted with myself and i am sure i will have to talk about this again. how do i keep my confidence up? this is unacceptable and could have caused harm. i have been an rn for a few weeks and this is not a good way to start. they said it will never happen again now, i sure hope so!!