I imagine I'm not the only one in this situation, but I'm finding it extremely hard here lately. Before nursing school, probably like most of you guys, I was a straight A student. Now that I am a junior in a BSN program, I can't recall the last A I saw next to my name. The problem I have is with my classmates & closest friends, however. While others are complaining because they only made a 90 on the latest exam, I find myself feeling stupid/wanting to cry/feeling like a TOTAL idiot because I made a 72 on the latest exam. I would kill to only make a 90!!! (This is just the most recent exam- don't worry, not all my grades are that way). Anyway, this is making me not want to associate with my closest friends anymore. After every single test they ask everyone how they did, how they felt, what answer they put for a certain question, etc, which REALLY makes me doubt myself. I'd rather just not discuss my grades and my tests, as it makes me feel so lame about myself AND it's nobody else's business anyway! Everything is a competition and I'm tired of it! What can I say nicely that I'd prefer not to disclose my grades & I don't want to discuss test questions/feelings?? The only other thing I know to do is to go somewhere else after tests, but that doesn't stop the messages and Facebook posts, etc.
Anyone else have this issue? Or a little advice?
Oh, ETA: They want my help when they need help. For example, I've helped a friend out with some questions she had about cardiac. But when I need help or have a question, I get "I dunno! Look it up". As in, I'm here to help my friends, but they are rarely there to help me. If none can help me when I need help, what the heck do I say when they need my help? Or my sim lab pre-work? Or my input on a quiz question??
It's not so much that I expect ppl to "pay me back". I just feel as if I have been bending over backwards to help my friends out and when I ask for help I get stupid, smart alek-y comments in return- "don't you own a care plan book???". Isn't that what friends do? Help and be helped? Reciprocate when needed? Be there for each other? It's like I help & help & help and when I need it, theres no help for me!
:) I agree with you, LLG.... I saw clearly today that I do, in fact, need better friends. This has been a 1-way friendship for too darn long!
Ash81386
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It's not so much that I expect ppl to "pay me back". I just feel as if I have been bending over backwards to help my friends out and when I ask for help I get stupid, smart alek-y comments in return- "don't you own a care plan book???". Isn't that what friends do? Help and be helped? Reciprocate when needed? Be there for each other? It's like I help & help & help and when I need it, theres no help for me!
:) I agree with you, LLG.... I saw clearly today that I do, in fact, need better friends. This has been a 1-way friendship for too darn long!