I gave a straight catheter for the first time ever today, on a 21 y/o paraplegic, mentally impaired, 55 pound (Yes you read that right) girl today. And although, I was able to keep up with my instructor's teaching (from giving her perineal care, and doing sterile technique) I accidently put the catheter into the wrong hole. It was a whole mess. We had to get another catheter, and do everything over again.
I have been practicing this procedure for about a year already, but what a sim man definitely does not teach you, is the pure difficulty of putting it in the correct urinary hole. In the sim man, there is a huge hole, there is a huge difference. I didn't expect it to be so hard.
I ended up apologizing to my instructor about five times. I was embarrassed for myself. And although, it genuinely seems that my instructor isn't mad...I don't know...I feel embarrassed...and disappointed in myself.
I always have a tendency to be incredibly....hard on myself.
Any advice at how I can get off...this low-mood train? Thanks.
