Deeply Disappointed and Burned Out

[Burned Out, BSN]

I graduated with my BSN in 2021 and went straight to the ICU. I was able to preceptor in ICU and cardiac before graduating I loved the experience and the critical thinking. When I received my job I was super excited however was hit with a dose of reality. Despite loving the critical thinking aspect I did not have the thick skin to go along with it. After 4 short months I decided to go into dialysis outpatient and realized how disorganized and unprofessional these clinics can be and was not given a proper preceptor but was given a technician to train me and being a new nurse it was really to my disadvantage. As I was not progressing in that environment I went to a new independently owned outpatient surgical center. Unfortunately, was given only 3 days of orientations (yes, you read that right). It was not a bad job but it was definitely disorganized and not helping me as a new RN. I decided to go back to dialysis at a different clinic where they gave me somewhat better training. I stayed there as I enjoyed the coworkers and patients but still just was not satisfied, I decided I would stay on PRN and go to a new hospital built to where I lived and go inpatient dialysis. This was on the ICU floor where the first 3 rooms were dedicated to dialysis. I thought to myself finally now in a hospital I will definitely get some good training from an RN and become more confident in my role. Unfortunately, I was more than wrong. No nurse trained me a technician did (a controlling one at that) yet management expected me to run like I was a nurse of 20 years of experience. It was just me and the controlling technician. The dialysis lead worked from home. Amongst it all I have become burned out and feel like a complete failure but I know down deep it was the health system that failed me. 
 

Reflecting I enjoy the outpatient setting but I also want to use my nursing skills. I do have some Chronic health issues that limit me hence why the outpatient is a better set up for me.

Any advice from those more experienced, should I just give up nursing? I would have lived doing research nursing or become an NP but I feel too much of a failure now.