I experienced my first code during a preceptorship in the NICU. I had never experienced death before ever and was not debriefed on the situation. While in my head I believe everything possible was done for this baby I am still feeling bouts of guilt and sadness over this loss. Is this normal? I feel like after all of my schooling maybe I am not meant to be a nurse when everyone else seems to be able to shrug it off.Any help would be great.