Dead Babies...To Get It Off My Chest

[caddismt]

I was floating to the ED this AM and everything was peaceful with kidney stones and inflamed bursas when a mother came screaming in with the dreaded blue baby in a carrier. I assisted in coding her for three hours. She had a subdural hematoma and had been shaken. I was dismayed to learn that she had an anoxic brain injury from being shaken several months prior this.

I'm sick.

[cardiacRN2006, ADN, RN]

They even send drug babies home with parents most of the time.

The reason: It's hard to take them away from the parents when you don't have a place to take the baby.

All of this happens and yet my sister a foster mother has to wait three years to adopt the baby she has raised since he was 4 months old, because the drug addict molesting mother might turn around and get him back.

This is why there aren't enough places for these babies to go. I would love to take one of these babies home and love them. But the constant fear of losing them would be worsened by the fact that the people they would go back to are creeps in the first place.

Then how could I sleep at night knowing that the child that I took in as my own might be in bed hungry, cold, and wondering where I am and why I did this to him/her?

Honestly, I couldn't take finally finding out what it means to be a mother and then lose the baby to its bio crack using and abusive parent(s).