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Well, I've finally reached the point of desperation.......Almost one year ago I decided I was going to lose 100 pounds by Christmas of this year; certainly I began well, losing some 40# in five months by cutting out sugar and cutting way down on refined carbohydrates. On top of that, I developed an exercise program and have done very well with that, sticking with it for almost eight months (I couldn't do much for the past few weeks because my @#*$! asthma has been kicking up) and building a much smaller body despite remaining well over 250#.
But I not only haven't lost a single ounce in nearly five months, I've actually REGAINED 12 lbs. and there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it. I've never gone back to eating sugar, although lately I've been taking some liberties with potatoes and bread, and my appetite is quite large now thanks to my activity level I've become so discouraged that I'm on the verge of just giving up......but over this past year I've learned that I love the way I feel when I eat right, and especially when I work out, and that's not something I can ignore anymore.
I don't have the will, however, to keep dieting and exercising and not see ANY reward in the form of weight loss. I don't know why I can't lose any more.......maybe it's because I'm on antidepressants, which I'm NOT going to give up, or because I'm menopausal, which isn't going to be done with anytime soon. At any rate, I've given it my best shot, and I'm fresh out of options........I said I would never consider bariatric surgery, because I have enough digestive problems as it is and didn't want to risk ending up with even more, but I'm beginning to think it may very well be my last chance.
My doctor has been after me for years to have it done, and now that there is a program within our very own health system, there are few, if any, barriers as far as insurance or follow-up care is concerned. I am definitely motivated to do what is needed to lose weight and keep it off.......I'm also a realist, in that I don't expect surgery to transform me or even take off all my excess pounds. What I am is afraid.......I'm afraid of the surgery's risks, but I'm also afraid of the risks if I DON'T have it done.
I've suffered from hypertension for many years; I'm on four different medications, and it's still not well controlled. I have mild CHF (my doctor hasn't said so directly, but I know when I have 3+ pitting edema in my legs and shortness of breath on occasion that it isn't from sitting with my legs hanging down all day), GERD, arthritis, chronic lower back pain, and bad knees. Yes, I'm very functional for all that.......but I'm not getting any younger, and I'm afraid that if I let this go on much longer something will happen (CVA, MI, diabetes?) that I can't fix.
So, what do y'all think? Should I even be thinking about it? Or should I just stop trying to diet and go for it? Inquiring minds (and bodies) want to know!