I just received a bad news. My nursing career is over. Yes, I am no longer one of you, but I feel a need to share my story. I have failed the CRNE for the third time and honestly, I don't know what is there left for me. I know things happen for a reason. sometimes, i just think that GOD is being so unfair. Throughout my nursing school, all i did was to do my best both theory and clinical. I have received praises being a "very good" Graduate Nurse. But then again, all has to end with an examination that I can't seem to pass even though I have put my thoughts and heart on preparing for it. At some point, I think of myself as a dumb individual, up for no good. If nursing was not meant for me, why did HE made it possible for me to even complete my Degree Program? I have so many questions to GOD right now. I have prayed hard for that moment of finally receiving a letter with the word "PASS" on it, but instead a phone call saying I have failed on my third attempt and had to wait for a letter containing my options.
Nursing Has always been my dream and I can't see myself pursuing other career in life. I don't think I can handle another 4 years of schooling or even the strength to even try to put my life back on track. I know that God has a reason for why I'm going through this test right now (one I consider the hardest test in my life, so far), and probably there is more to come. I have so much faith in him that in spite it all, I still look forward to that one morning of waking up from my sleep and the pain, the sadness, the sufferings are over. I know that HE works in ways unimaginable. I know that he hears my prayer and in his own time he'll grant those prayers. But for now, all I needed is some sort of encouragement from you, whoever you are reading this post right now.
I still thank GOD because I have my life, I am breathing, I can still appreciate all the good things he had created. As long as there is tomorrow, I will continue to fight a good fight!
I wrote to the CNO's Board of Directors to make an appeal for a 4th writing but they told me that I can't take the CRNE after 3 failed attempts. CNO suggested that I should go back to school and take the nursing course again and it was not what I expected to hear from them. I was really heartbroken and it took me a while to get back on my feet again. However, I was informed by one of the Case Management Coordinators that I can make an appeal for a 4th writing on compassionate reasons. Since my family relocated to BC, I contacted CRNBC and inquired if I was eligible to write after 3 unsuccessful attempts. I received a letter in response to my inquiry and they requested that I provide all necessary documents needed by the CRNBC's Board of Directors to review my case (they will tell you exactly what to do after your initial contact with them). I registered with CRNBC, paid all the fees for assessment and waited for months to find out if they will allow me to write the CRNE again. I had to wait for almost 8 months for them to review my case. I received the approval to write the CRNE a few days before the deadline for registration. I was given an extra week to submit my application for the exam.
If I were you, I will contact CNO in writing and make an appeal on compassionate grounds. I don't know what your circumstances were during the exams but there is no harm in trying. If you get approved, you get to write and if you don't, then find another avenue to attain your objective.
My situation is worse than your current situation so don't give up! There's always an answer to all our problems and I can really relate to what you are feeling right now.
Cheers!
Hi survivor007
Thanks for your inspiring words and pieces of advice. I wanted to talk to you more about this if you are open to it, can you send me a personal message with your email ad so we can personally email each other? Thanks... and keep holding on! :)
Thanks for the encouraging and uplifting comment. I am very happy for you that you are not experiencing the difficulties I am facing at this moment. I know that you can never really grasp the intensity of pain that I am feeling because we are not in the same boat. May you prosper in your career.
I didn’t find it a waste of time because I am pursuing a goal that I want to achieve. It is heart breaking but I never looked at my failure the same way you viewed my situation. When I took the exam, I didn’t have any intentions of failing. I also didn’t see it as a favor because I fulfilled and met the requirements needed to be granted another chance to write. I am thankful to those wise men and women making decisions that they are not narrow-minded and without prejudice.
As far as I know, I live in Canada, a great country where people have lots of opportunities so finding a job is the least of my worries. On the brighter side, “I didn’t fail the test; I just found 100 ways to do it wrong.”
ecclessia, I don't mind communicating with you. I am new to this site so I am not allowed to send personal/private messages yet. Do you have any idea on how I can give and/or get your e-mail address without posting it publicly? cheers!
ecclessia, I don't mind communicating with you. I am new to this site so I am not allowed to send personal/private messages yet. Do you have any idea on how I can give and/or get your e-mail address without posting it publicly? cheers!
Hi survivor007
thanks! I will find a way to get in touch with you and get your email ad somehow. I am new as well and can't send pm's yet. but thanks still :)
Thanks for the encouraging and uplifting comment. I am very happy for you that you are not experiencing the difficulties I am facing at this moment. I know that you can never really grasp the intensity of pain that I am feeling because we are not in the same boat. May you prosper in your career.
I didn't find it a waste of time because I am pursuing a goal that I want to achieve. It is heart breaking but I never looked at my failure the same way you viewed my situation. When I took the exam, I didn't have any intentions of failing. I also didn't see it as a favor because I fulfilled and met the requirements needed to be granted another chance to write. I am thankful to those wise men and women making decisions that they are not narrow-minded and without prejudice.
As far as I know, I live in Canada, a great country where people have lots of opportunities so finding a job is the least of my worries. On the brighter side, "I didn't fail the test; I just found 100 ways to do it wrong."
Cheers!
Hi survivor 007,
I admire your courage and resilience at this difficult time in your life. Please know that your words have uplifted me and that I will, starting from now, include you in my prayers. Take care, God Bless you and hope to talk to you soon.
ecclessia, I don't mind communicating with you. I am new to this site so I am not allowed to send personal/private messages yet. Do you have any idea on how I can give and/or get your e-mail address without posting it publicly? cheers!
Survivor did they really do you a favor, you failed the fourth time! You wasted your time and money. If by a miracle you get to take the exam the fifth time, who would employ you ?
To the others, why did it come a surprise that on your third attempt you failed, you had a track record of failing 2 times. Personally I would have taken the refresher after failing the second time. Did the college make recommendations after you failed the second time.
Taking the NCLEX would be a waste of money in my opinion, if you don't have legal access to work. Why would someone hire you if you passed in a competitive market when you couldn't pass the standards in your home country?
The test is there for a reason, three times is an acceptable amount, you may not like this but nursing may not be for you.
For those who reside in Ontario, have you heard anything from CNO? They told me they would send me a letter one month after receiving my results on March.
ecclessia
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Hi survivor007
Thanks for your inspiring words and pieces of advice. I wanted to talk to you more about this if you are open to it, can you send me a personal message with your email ad so we can personally email each other? Thanks... and keep holding on! :)