At a loss - Need your support and prayers

[abbaking]

A family member of mine has died. In a few hours I will be flying to New York to be with the remaining family.

This may not be the best place but I needed to vent.

First ever family death and its very difficult on me.....

[nursel56]

Thanks for the update . . . the feeling of unreality was definitely there for me when I went through this last year. I also noticed that there seemed to be a dual thought process going on. There was "me" and another part of me seemed almost like a dispassionate observer of my reactions and trying to dissect them. I remember this started right away as when I heard the news initially I didn't cry or sob. I was stunned I guess but the voice in my head was saying "why aren't you crying? -- you should be crying right now"! etc. I don't have the expertise to say whether something is normal or not but that's how I felt!