Hi all, I recently switched from acute care after 5 years to outpatient PACU. It's less stressful although I am nervous giving so many narcotics. It's a bit routine and I don't get to do IVs (only remove), draw blood, foleys, IV pumps, wounds, etc. I emailed my former manager about coming back per diem. So far I haven't heard back but I heard she's out on family leave. All the patients, nurses, and doctors I worked with complimented me on how I did my job, as did my boss, but my boss and close friends commented that the job seemed to stress me out too easily.
I never freaked out in front of patients, but sometimes in break room or nurse's station I would talk about being overwhelmed, wanting to cry, wanting to quit... I know, not professional. Maybe to do with bipolar disorder and anxiety. But it never affected my job performance, just my own mental health. For this reason I'm not sure if my boss will take me back and if I should apply per diem at another hospital (lots of hospitals hiring.) I still have bad dreams about my hospital days... last night about a time a patient needed a second IV for antibiotics because other IV used for bicarb drip. My floor was so understaffed, no one free to help. I tried to help but missed 3 times, pt's nurse couldn't do it and we had to pause the bicarb for 30 mins =( This was 4 years ago. Why does it still come into my mind?? Are these dreams and my coworkers' feedback a sign I shouldn't ever do acute care again? They all want me to come back. Does anyone think they personally aren't mentally fit for acute care? Not as in can't do the job, just that it affects you too negatively? Thanks
I don’t think what you described means you are not meant for acute care. I think you were put in situations beyond your control and it made you frustrated and angry. I think our healthcare has been failing for years and Covid simply illuminated the faults in our system.
I am in a similar boat. I am in preop/PACU and get bored with the redundancy of the job. I find myself getting annoyed with what I perceive as little things (like when the OR team has a conniption because I put an IV line in the right arm versus left since the patient is a difficult stick and that was the best I could give them!). The little things and lack of skills does sometimes get to me. However, every time I think I applying PRN to the ER again, I can never force myself to fill out an entire application. Or every time I go down to the ED to pick up a patient and all my former coworkers tell me “it’s so bad!” and everyone is running around like chickens with their heads cut off.....I remember why I left.
Maybe at some point, I will go back to the ED. However, I don’t think I am past the feelings of anger and frustration and incredibly unsafe situations.....the verbal and physical abuse. The going 12 to 16 hours without eating and being physically and emotionally exhausted.
I really do think our society’s version of what strength is is incredibly warped and messed up. Strength is seen as seen as staying in a job that is mentally and physically draining.....that if you leave to pursue a job that’s better for YOU, then that’s weakness. And it’s not.
I know I am so much more compassionate and less angry since leaving the ER. For me, the loss of skills is worth it. If those feelings ever change, then I can go back. However, for me, I know it’s not the right time or place to go back.
3 hours ago, LibraNurse27 said:I'm glad you are doing better! What type of work do you do now?
I started early retirement and my pension. At this point, I have no plans on working in nursing. I'm just enjoying my freedom. Also I feel like I freed myself from a very abusive employer. I feel sad for those still working there.
I get updates and nothing is better. The working conditions are terrible, unsafe and management has total disrespect and contempt for the workers. They don't even bother to hide it. Consequently they are losing nursing in droves and will have to keep paying travelers crisis pay to keep the doors open! Eight nurses left since December and six more are leaving in the ER!
10 hours ago, speedynurse said:I don’t think what you described means you are not meant for acute care. I think you were put in situations beyond your control and it made you frustrated and angry. I think our healthcare has been failing for years and Covid simply illuminated the faults in our system.
I am in a similar boat. I am in preop/PACU and get bored with the redundancy of the job. I find myself getting annoyed with what I perceive as little things (like when the OR team has a conniption because I put an IV line in the right arm versus left since the patient is a difficult stick and that was the best I could give them!). The little things and lack of skills does sometimes get to me. However, every time I think I applying PRN to the ER again, I can never force myself to fill out an entire application. Or every time I go down to the ED to pick up a patient and all my former coworkers tell me “it’s so bad!” and everyone is running around like chickens with their heads cut off.....I remember why I left.
Maybe at some point, I will go back to the ED. However, I don’t think I am past the feelings of anger and frustration and incredibly unsafe situations.....the verbal and physical abuse. The going 12 to 16 hours without eating and being physically and emotionally exhausted.
I really do think our society’s version of what strength is is incredibly warped and messed up. Strength is seen as seen as staying in a job that is mentally and physically draining.....that if you leave to pursue a job that’s better for YOU, then that’s weakness. And it’s not.
I know I am so much more compassionate and less angry since leaving the ER. For me, the loss of skills is worth it. If those feelings ever change, then I can go back. However, for me, I know it’s not the right time or place to go back.
I think we're in the same boat! A little nostalgic for the good parts of acute care and our former colleagues, but not quite enough to actually go back! LOL
6 hours ago, brandy1017 said:I started early retirement and my pension. At this point, I have no plans on working in nursing. I'm just enjoying my freedom. Also I feel like I freed myself from a very abusive employer. I feel sad for those still working there.
I get updates and nothing is better. The working conditions are terrible, unsafe and management has total disrespect and contempt for the workers. They don't even bother to hide it. Consequently they are losing nursing in droves and will have to keep paying travelers crisis pay to keep the doors open! Eight nurses left since December and six more are leaving in the ER!
Good for you! That does NOT sound like a good place to work
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I'm glad you are doing better! What type of work do you do now?