I'm not sure if what I experience is normal or not. Over the past few years I've had a hard time staying awake in general behind the wheel if I'm driving for longer than 1/2 hour - 45 minutes. During the day it's easier, but even if I get a good night's sleep, I have to work on consciously reminding myself to stay awake. It only happens to me while driving.
I rotate day/nights 12 hour shifts and commuting after a night shift is extremely difficult. Taking a brief nap before heading home only makes it worse. I have tried: blasting the radio, singing along, eating ice, chewing gum, coffee 1/2 hour before my shift ends, rolling the windows down and sticking my head out, putting on the a/c, making myself freezing cold so that I'm too uncomfortable to want to drift off, eating breakfast in the car on the way home. I mean, you name it and I've tried it...and it makes no difference. I can literally feel sleep coming over me and a heaviness in my brain, and there's not much I can do about it. I drift off at red lights until a car behind me honks, I start falling asleep behind the wheel during the drive and my body jumps as I wake up quickly. I will also slam on the brakes in the middle of driving as I wake up thinking I'm about to hit something, but I'm nowhere near anything. Last year I fell asleep driving home after an overnight double and hit a snow bank 1/2 mile from my house. Thank God there was a blizzard and no one else on the road. I don't do overnight doubles anymore because of that, but it still doesn't solve the problem. I swerve at least once every morning, everything starts getting surreal, and often I don't remember driving home or I feel like the drive is a dream even though I know I'm awake, if that makes any sense. It's even started happening after day shifts, but nowhere near as bad as driving home after a night shift. The only thing that keeps me awake is if I come close to getting in an accident and I feel the adrenaline rush. That usually lasts long enough to get me close to home before it starts happening again. I'm so afraid I'm going to get seriously hurt or seriously hurt someone else. I live too far to use public transportation, and I've even thought about giving up the specialty I love to get any job close by, but there aren't many hospitals right near me and the ones that are, aren't hiring anyway.
Has anyone experienced this before or is there something wrong with me? Does it get better with time? I've been commuting after night shifts for about 18 months and it isn't getting better. Does anyone have other tips/tricks that have worked for them? I can't have a lot of caffeine or use energy drinks because I have a congenital heart condition. Thanks in advance, and please, no flames. I'm aware what I've shared is dangerous and I'm coming here for advice because I feel at a loss. I have to work, and commuting with someone else isn't an option, I live about 45 minutes northeast of my work and everyone lives in the city or south of.
