A calling that I didn't want to answer

[aquakenn, CNA]

I am wondering if anyone has experienced something similar to this: last year I decided to find a less stressful job for a little while. I had a job coach to help me problem solve. One of my stipulations was to have a job where I could wear scrubs - they look so comfortable. She suggested being a PCA. At first, I refused the idea. The thought of housework was not appealing; and bathing, changing, feeding the elderly didn't seem to be my cup of tea either. I was desperately looking for a job so I enrolled in a free PCA training sponsored by a non-profit agency. I took the course, received a PCA certification; and began working as a PCA. I promised myself to be diligent with this job. As weeks went by I began to enjoy the job more each day.

I had been working for two months and I started getting a calling to go for nursing. It was a calling I was trying not to answer. My plan was to be a PCA and leave it at that. The calling kept coming up. I haven't had a science class since I was 12; now I'm 52. I love to learn, and I do like shows on the human body. So I'm very open to studying. I bought the TEAS study guide and look through it on occasion. When I ask myself if I really want to do an LPN course, that "calling" comes to me telling me to do it.

I pray to God that if this is something he wants me to do, he needs to make it work.

In a couple of weeks, I will begin an HHA course. I have read on this site that getting certified and working as a CNA or HHA provides a good foundation for nursing.

I'm doing things in "bite sizes". I can't believe that I'm am pursuing this, but something other than myself is calling me to do this. It's hard to explain the feeling. I have no opinion of doing nursing, but this "calling" keeps me moving.

[anewsns]

Callings aren't always obvious , they just unfold as you get new information. It's really amazing to see. Nursing can be a really tough world. Keep taking those steps and talking to God. I felt a few times in my career that I made a mistake honestly. But it makes more sense as time goes on.