Quote from janfrn
At the funeral, Grandpa came up to me and said, "You told me we'd have him home by the end of the week. But instead we're burying him." Those words have stayed with me for more than 11 years. I think of them every time I'm tempted to make a prediction that I know could be totally wrong. I don't want to ever have a grandpa say anything like that to me again.
Point well taken. Its amazing how words can cause such emotion and such distress..I guess we sometimes take for granted what we say..
I was actually mad at most of the nurses today on the floor. The night shift nurse couldnt handle her anymore and didnt take the assignment. This child is dying, and there is nothing else we can do about it but make her comfortable. My job today was just that, as well as yesterday. I took pride in keeping her clean, and comfortable, and medicated to relieve pain/agitation. I also comforted the family, and helped when need be. I also gave them their space..
I just couldnt understand why other nurses who had taken care of her before were suddenly refusing to take care of her. I know that nobody wants any patient to die on them, but if it happens, shouldnt you have provided the best possible care, before and after death?
I've never had a pedi death (when i am present) . I've been to pedi funerals. I've taken care of DNR children, and just kept them comfortable..other nurses have had pedi deaths, so why were they so afraid to take care of her?
I think im rambling, but my husband doesnt understand, and I needed to slightly vent..
As an update, she was given 24-48 hours today..I got hugs from family at the end of the shift, and mom said something along the lines of 'i'm glad you were here today'. Grandfather thanked me numerous times, and told me that last night he told her that it was ok to go. It meant the world to me to have that mom say that..
I'm off for the next 3 in a row..I pray she goes peacefully and quickly - I've never called to check on a patient before, but I feel the need to call tomorrow..
Thanks for listening..