Hello ladies and gents,
I'm new to allnurses.com and was wondering if any of you lovely people had some advice for me. I qualified in the summer of 2012 when the whole world was going Olympics mad (!) and started a job at a large teaching hospital on an older peoples general medical ward. I have always loved the speciality, during my interview I was asked 'why do you want to nurse older patients?' and I replied truthfully, "I enjoy the challenge of an older peoples ward, I like the fact that they have many existing conditions that need to be managed... and to honest, I like the fact they don't always do what you say. Older people aren't afraid to challenge your practice!"
To cut a long story short, I really enjoy life on my ward. Its a big place, 38 beds, and we're almost always full to capacity with a waiting list for beds. The majority of staff I work with are fantasic, hard working individuals.
But some of the issues I've been struggling with, for which I would like your thoughts and/or suggestions are as follows.
I was told at my interview I would have a preceptor, someone to show me the ropes and to guide me through my first few months. I trained elsewhere in the country to where I now work so it was a big step. Basically, a preceptorship hasn't happened. I have reminded my line manager several times about it but nothing occurs as yet, and I've been in my post coming up three months now. Its been hard, I won't lie, to adjust to life as an RN rather than a student. I feel on the whole I've coped well, but I could still do with some support and feedback about my work.
Time and time again, I ask myself 'am I good enough?' Several patients have given me really good feedback and I've had lovely comments from relatives since I've been here but is that enough to show I am truly good at my job? Last night a patient said, 'you are one of the best nurses I've ever met' and that really touched me. But still... all this self doubt, is that normal folks?
I worry like all other newly qualified RNs I suppose about messing up with drugs, procedures, discharges etc etc... Touch wood I've so far not made any catastrophic mistakes. But what happens if I do? I'm terrified of losing my registration and being struck off. Care work and nursing is all I've ever done. I'm only 24 but if the worst was to happen, what would I do???
Please do reply to this thread if you can sympathise with my thoughts. Just like to know I'm not alone is all!
Lots of love
Well it sounds like you are right on track according to what your matron had said.
With regards to the nasty patient, they are A. Probably jealous of your kind temperament which is something they don't have and B. just plain nasty. I work on a psychiatric intensive care unit and just last week I was call a 'fat ugly ****' I'd like to think I'm neither and this person was mentally well, just nasty. I told him that's his opinion. When he didn't stop calling me names I told him I wouldn't be talking to him until he stop being so rude and a male nurse took care of him.
I would tell your patient to stop being nasty and if they can't ask someone else to do the caring! It's so hard, I know I have it all the time. You learn to deal with it. Unfortunately people can't be nice so I think what a horrible life they must have to be nasty to others. Please don't let them upset you. You will adapt. I hope the people who bullied you are suffering karma somewhere. You have proven you are a successful nurse who's on her way up to be an even more brilliant nurse. You should be proud if yourself!!!
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