I'm a RN of 2 years and have been working on a very busy medical surgical floor with mostly dementia patients. It has been extremely hard working at this career and I've many times cried or beat myself up about work. It makes me feel inadequate to help people due to so many demands and my heart is not in it.
I've been looking for a new job for over 1 year. I've had maybe 6 interviews and 2-3 phone interviews without any offers (over 50 applications). So I've been feeling pretty stuck in a job, or possibly career that has stressed me out and affects my personal life as well ( Crying when I get home). It does have positives, the 3 day work week and decent pay/benefits. Today I'm about to go on an interview for a job related to RN and the technical side of nursing; essentially a desk job with a longer commute. And although I don't know how that will go, I'm wondering if it's worth the risk to go from a full time with benefits to a contract job with a significant pay cut to get a job I may actually enjoy. I could probably still live on that salary, but I don't think I'll have benefits and there's never a guaranteed position with contract work. I've REALLY stuck out this job longer than I have liked and hoped I'd get something in Home health or a clinic. I cannot trade for another floor job. Sometimes I hope I'll get into some horrific accident in order not to go to work, and regret my whole degree and career.
Should I stick it out longer or take a leap of fate if they offer? I' m 23. Any words of advice?