Aug 10, '10 by balfore_rn
im newbie in this forum and i was glad to find this site. well we are all in the same boat, suffered from fear of rejection, dilema, depression. found out that i was hep b+ way back 1998.. before the clinicals-- last few days of my 3rd year in college.. evry student need to be screened and immunized prior hospital exposure in manila. got soo stunned when university nurse approached me and talked to me in private that im one of the few who got + with hep b.. i was in a state of shock then but kept evrythng within me-- i was paperwhite then and feeling so sick to my stomach but i ddnt tell anybody nor my friends even if they've been soo concerned of whats going on with me. my mom got me right away to the doctor..and i was prescribed to take IMMUNOSIN (im not sure of the spelling) for a couple of days. i was 20yrs old then and all the dreams of a 20 year old suddenly collapsed-- i chose to be so quite in school & even at home, dnt have courage to tell even to my sisters.. i got so paranoid- i even separate my own silverwares,cups, plates, etc..,wash my plate and utensils with warm water for fear that my fmily might catch it too... i cried only once.. bcause of frustration.. but my faith with the LORD kept me sane.. few weeks after learning im + -- iv told myself the LORD gve this to me so HE knows that i cn conquer this illness. my mom brought me to a well known gastroenterologist in makati med tru the help of a family friend..they ran some labs..and i found out that my HBVDNA is also +..meaning im a chronic carrier.. i kept that result up to this time to remind me of my journey with hep b within me..
i found a very warm and encouraging gastroenterologist in our province.. and that time the very first LAMIVUDINE medication just got out of asian market. my gastroenterologist ddnt want me to have interferon bcause of the side effects..he asked me if i want to try lamivudine which just got out of market and he got samples to give me whom he got from the convention he attended for the launching of the Lamivudine somewhere here in california. i ddnt hesitate told him whatever i takes il try it.. 1 tab of lamivudine then costs 150.00 Php nd have to take it evryday. i decided to lookfor a job to sustain my treatment.. got off from fatty foods.. eventually got hired in one of the hospital in our place.. they never required the staff to be screened for hep b then since the reagent is costly-per say--- i cntinued to work in that hospital for almost 5 yrs-- and just tryng to avoid hep b screening everytime they remind the staff to submit current screening result.. iv undergone lamivudine treatment for almost , maybe 3-4 or 5 yrs..i guess.
my gastroMD stopped the treatment when eventually i got nonreactive result with my HbeAg though still reactive with HbsAG and still no anti body for both. per my gastro MD..the fact that i turned out to be NON REACTIVE with HBeAG..he said that im no longer 'infectious' but a chronic carrier.. its just that the virus was contained and not replicating as long as il be NON REACTIVE with HBeAG..but i still have the bug in my system..my MD gave me a medical certificate stating that i am eligible to work abroad.. i cnt thank the LORD enough of what had turned out to be a miracle for me coz my papers to US got approved and was praying so hard that i may not hve trouble with the physical exam-- physical exam came at st lukes--blood draw was done.. got the shock of my life when staff called me and told me ''u have to come back next week-- for ur urine analysis-- i asked about the blood draw-- she said-- THE ONLY THING THAT U NEED TO DO IS UR URINE ANALYSIS OTHERWISE EVRYTHNG SEEMS to be clear!!! Praised the LORD..!!
now im currntly working in one of the hospital here in california.. . THE THING IS.. WE HAVE TO CONQUER OUR FEAR.. KEEP OUR FAITH... just go on with life.. as long as you know how to protect urself and other people-- universal and standard precaution at all times. we just need to be more responsible. im happily married now--my partner- a nurse too- accepted me for what i am..
Last edit by Silverdragon102 on Aug 10, '10
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Thank you very much for posting your very inspiring story here..you really give hope to us nurses here in PH..if i may can i ask some questions? did the employers of yours know that your a reactive to hep b? had you told the st lukes regarding your situation? and what happen to your certification from your doctor clearing you that you can work abroad? sorry if some of my questions are personal i just really want to know the whereabouts of it so that i would know what to do and what to expect looking forward that you can share to us about this...
..God bless us all..
Last edit by Silverdragon102 on Aug 12, '10
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