I have only been working as a nurse for about 8 months. I work on an orthopedic inpatient unit. We have mostly post-op patients but also a lot of ortho trauma. I work nights. I feel like this job is ruining my life. I absolutely hate it. I have no life, I feel like I am slipping into depression because I never see anyone. I barely see my husband because we have opposite schedules. My family lives in a different state so I never see them. I can never switch back to a day schedule, so even when I'm off I just sleep all day and stay up all night bored bc the rest of the world is sleeping. Plus, I hate my job itself. The management is horrible, the unit is way understaffed. I dread each night of work...sometimes driving to work in tears. Even on my nights off I just sit and think about how little time I have before I have to go back to that awful place. I feel like I'm doing a good job, and everyone says I'm doing great for a new nurse and that I handle the tough assignments well, but I am just so unhappy.
Anyways, I know I should be thankful that I even have a job, but I really feel like its ruining my life...and my husband agrees. It took me 8 months to find this job, and like I said, I only have 8 months experience. I really want to find another job, but I can't find anything. Plus, I'm afraid that I will dislike another job just as much. I really feel like I need to get out of hospital/staff nursing in general, but I don't know what else is out there...especially for someone with little experience. Are there non-hospital jobs out there for someone in my situation?
Sorry to hear you are so unhappy! Nights shift can be hard, no matter your specialty. I worked nights before I was a nurse, and it just about made me turn into a sad vampire. (Though some folks love it). I worked in acute care 12 years. I tried 3 different departments on dayshift and evenings. Some units I liked more than others. The best advice I could give you is to think about all the areas that interest you (outside the hospital if that's what appeals to you) and start looking for jobs to try out. I was feeling so miserable in med/surg that it was making me want to quit nursing. I finally decided I had nothing to lose by trying anything and everything that *might* be a better match. I will be honest, it took me over a year to get interviews for the jobs that I really wanted. I work part time as well, by choice, so that I don't feel too "burned out." I may make less money than FT nurses, but to me the work/life balance is well worth it! What do you want to do? Hospice, home health, school nursing, administrative, private duty, clinic, ambulatory surgery, case management, telephonic/advice, nurse educator, etc? Whatever area sounds good to you would be worth investigating! I finally just left the hospital setting myself, and am working in phone triage.It is very different, and I am new and feel like a "new grad." However, it is interesting work, and I am liking it so far. Change can be a good thing! Good luck! I hope you find a place you like better.
Last edit by Genista on Sep 24, '11
: Reason: clarification