Here's my story. I'm 36, work in the printing field, make plates and do scanning, it sucks, so in 1998 i decide to go back to school.
I went for a A.S. in PC and Internet Programming...it took me 4 freaking years going part-time to get that degree. But the funny thing is,,,i got it,,but im not really motivated about it. Since graduating last summer, Ive applied at maybe 10 places, of course i havent gotten anything, but im not trying that hard either. Programming is ok, i was gonna get on the WEB side of it, but I wont get the time of day with just a Associates degree.
So i looked into an online program to get a bachelors in Information Systems,,but then i thought to myself,,,is this what i REALLY want?
Last week i was at my aunts, she isnt a nurse but works around them, she has no education in nursing, so shes some kind of assistant of a assistant i guess. Anyway, I was talking about how I'm still in printing and havent found a new job yet, then out of the blue she says, "You should be a nurse Tom! They need big guys like you in nursing." The wierd thing was, I didn't come out and say "Oh noway, thats not for me." But instead i said "yeah?!?! with a sense of curiosity. But I shoved it away from my brain cuz i just spent 4 years going to school! But at the sametime, I'm wondering if I went for the wrong thing by getting into computers.
Today, I took a personality test online and wouldnt ya know it...
I'm a "ISFJ" The Nuturer Personality Type!
IM NOT A INTJ Scientific Type hence programmer!
And wouldnt ya know it, under the ISFJ personality type one of the careers is...Nursing.
One should be happy, but I feel like a total IDIOT!
Everybody knows i went back to school at age 32 to learn computers,,,and now after im done at age 36,,,get into nursing???
Im just really confused,,,and bummed by what people at work are gonna say,,,everyday at work they ask me if i got a new job yet.
I know I shouldnt care what others think cuz its my life,,,but it is hard.
One funny thing that happened after i got done taking the personality test was, i kick back, star at the ceiling, grab the remote start flicking through the channels, and in the first 15 or so channels i flicked through,,,3 channels had scenes of hospital setting. Quincy was on, Sanford and Son was on where Sanford was talking to a nurse, and the Cosby show where Bill was in a hospital room talking to a patient. WHAT THE HELL KINDA SIGN IS THIS!
Im really down on myself for i think i majored in the wrong thing.
Thus, i fear if i go through a 2 year nursing program, will i pull the same stunt again of majoring in the wrong thing???
I guess the major thing I'm worried about regarding nursing is,,,
will i be able to handle the dying part?
Are there Nursing Jobs that dont deal with alot of death?
I know that patients dying is a part of the job, but I jsut wonder if i could deal with it. Any death is sad, but if i saw someone die before their time age wise,,,i just dont know how long i could handle that part of the job.
Sorry this was soo long,,,but im just really bummed out and really need advice.