Hi everyone! Im a new grad and about Month n a half ago, landed my first job in Cardiac Intensive Care @ one of the most prestigious hospitals in the country. Though I've only been on the job for a small amount of time, Im afraid this isn't a good job for me as a brand new nurse. I like the staff, the hours, and the fact that we can self schedule, but the job is so stressful that I've developed a panic disorder! Every day/night before my shift, i get short of breath, my heart races, and I cry.uncontrollably allllll the way to work! I DREAD going there! Idk why I get so anxious and stressed out! I've already had 3 patients code so you think I'd be used to it, but I get sooooo nervous that it hinders my learning during the code.
I'm currently working under a "coach" (aka preceptor ) so Im not alone yet I feel like Im drowning @ times. Pace Makers, Femoral sites, and drips scare the living crap out of me and I hate bathing n turning heavy, sedated patients @ 3am while making sure i dont rip out an Art Line or Swan by accident.
I spoke with several nurses who've told me that Im not crazy : it's really just an intense floor. I even had one tell me she got nauseated every day before her shift nonstop for 6 months! I don't want to end up burnt out n depressed before my career has even started! That's how I'm feeling though and Idk if Im in over my head n should look for a new job, or if Im simply not giving myself enough credit and time to take it all in!??
Though ppl have said I'm not crazy, I'm thinking that these feelings are abnormal. I shouldn't need a Psych consult just because of a job, right? I don't want to burn any bridges @ this great hospital, but Im thinking about quitting!
NICU was my first love, but Im scared that I'll feel the same level of anxiety with the little ppl as well! Is NICU a little better?
HELP! Im counting on you guys to help me through!